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Friday, November 25, 2011 1:12 AM

yoyoyo !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!OMG PROMS OVER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH IS WAS DAM FUN LOL
but before i wanna start anything
i wanna say

ver im very worried about you !!!
im like trying to understand but i cant.. !!
cause i thought you would like visitors and i really dont wanna hurt you in any way or anything !!!
i hope youre okay !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

okok !!!
HAHAHAHAHA
OMG PROM
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
okay for the first time im gonna post photos on top !!!
after this post hehe

prom was a blast.
or should i call it .. nightclub??? LOL

it was damn fun

okay let me start from the start
i had many many shopping dates !!!!!!!!!
like everyday had one !!
'worked' so hard for today LOL
spent so much ..

so on the day of prom itself ..
in the morning/afternoon
i was going to go ver house and makeup and get ready together for prom !!
so i decided to change one last time at home to make sure i have the right dress + accessories..
as i was closing the door too hard ..
it ran over my last toe
and got stuck there .
reflex action when you feel pain you will get away from it.
so i yanked my teo away before i even know it.
and suffered a deep cut. :(

it was dam pain and numb for a while
like i wanted to scream and cry but no use cause i home alone !!!
then make noise also no help !!
so i kinda 'calmed' myself down ..
then i go toliet to wash the blood !!
guess what !! it flowed endlessly !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL

im like very very very scared of blood .
i had this fear since i was born .
everytime i see blood... lots of it
i will faint !!!!
and thats exactly what happened.. it was the first time i really believed in god !!!

like . i felt very giddy and i really wanted to change out of my dress before anything got worse.
and i didnt make it in time !!!
while i was changing... i fainted in my corridor LOL

and its like i really believed in existence of a higher being
cause .. i woke up within minutes . feeling fine and dandy
lying down upright on the floor..
and i wonder ..

1. how can i faint so .... safely ???
2. how could i wake up so quickly after feeling so weak!!

its like there wasnt a bump or anything at all ..
even tho the impact of my fall has forced another door to open..
but i was perfectly fine

anyway
then go vernice house !!!!!!!!!!!!
makeup !!
tie hair !!!!
change !!!!!
get ready !! TO PARTYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
hahas quite cool luh
like it was a all girls time.. wanted to take photos but i was rushing !!!!
dam!!!

then after that took ver car and GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

very very very cool!!!!!!!!!!
took many many many photos and had like...
clubbing LOL
OR SOMETHING

its so damn memorable..
see many people and things for last time :(
i miss everything !!!
the food was damn nice too !!!
i sat with lester radiance andrea digene junwei chime yiyong !!
quite funny to hear them talk LOL
guy talk about how digene was jealous of jeffrey with priscillia!!

then the food so nice !!
during mrs cheah talk .. for the first time i really focused and listened !!
cause i felt like...
its the last time i hear her talk ..
not that i like her but its just ...
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

and i just like took a moment to look at everyone and everything and memorised everything into my long term memory ..
this prom was unforgetable man...

after all the events they opened up the dance floor during the voting..
at first no one dare to go ..
then the sec 5 enthuly go first !!
them somehow more and more and more people go !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then just the whole damn cohort partying !!!!!!!!!!!! LOL
it was dam black and there was spotlight and everything..
like a real disco place with blasting music !!!

then there were like random 'snakes' rows of people some of which dont know each other make line and run !!!!!
LOL
dam fun .
then many of us jumped cause we dont really know how to party LOL
and i cant believe i jump and run in my silleto like shoes !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
at first i was a bit scared ..!! but after that ...
i just relaxed and got dam high !!!

i jumped from clique to clique ..
partied with lynn jingwen a lot !!!
plus maddy clara vernice reiene radiance andrea becca jeidy jodie zhenyi chloe daniel jiayi xavier even have lina maisarah and many many others.
especially.. LESTER LOL

it was dam dam dam high
its like we will scream and shout randomly
grabbing all our friends who were quiet or resting and stuffs !!!
and shout out the songs with know
like baby sorry and the party rock athem .LOL
then many people did suffling ..
and the down down down song
did a lil dance with daniel LOL
jingwen kept grabbing and running with me randomly it was quite funny LOL !!
like she just ... chiong ah !!!
at first i was so dam scared i fall cause of my heels
but i didnt care !!!

partied partied
took many photos..
became more open with many things too
i will never forget how i just relaxed and spent my last day as a commonwealthian..
and also how i marched over to teban guys for lester LOL
and how i jumped from clique to clique just like in school .... :)
how we stopped jumping after like every 3mins of fatigue.. and danced the no jump dance LOL
and just .. how much fun everyone had !!!
:D :D

at the end i didnt even realise how much my legs felt like dying..
its like only until they on all the lights and offed the music..
then i had a sense of how much pain my legs were suffering LOL
it was like whoaaa
took many many photos in my sweaty self. but i dont regret cause its like proof that we partied man..
like how much we enjoyed..

then finally time to serperate :(
said bye to many many people
and miss them alr..
final sweaty photos..!!
:)

went 'walk walk' with jon xav jinggy lynn
in the end took jon car to lynn house...
FOR SLEEPOVER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahahahahahahaha.
super fun too
me and lynn spent like every 5mins thinking ...
i cant believe the prom has ended..
i cant believe life at css officially ended ..
i cant believe olevels over..
i cant believe i have TIME TO RELAX AND LET MY HAIR LOOSE AND PARTY SOME MORE YO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL
we watched movie at like 2 to 4 or smth.
her whole family was very very nice to me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then from 4.. to ...... EIGHT
we talked
LOL
IDK HOW
BUT WE TALKED
about anything under the sun .
ranging from primary school to boyfriends and family.
about past present and future.
we were supposed to sleep at 7 ..
then i just couldnt !!
felt so happy !!!
then talked a bit more until 8!!!
and i cant believe i literally had my 'goodnights rest' when the sun was shining down on me !!!
LOL
the sky changed from like black to dark blue to light blue to white.
and we saw the whole change !!!!!
so cool !!! LOL
so fun !!!
and idk why i woke up at 11 !!!
and i tot everything was a dream..
the whole experience...!!
but it wasnt !!
and even if it was it would be the best dream i ever had !! :D

continued bonding with lynn and her siblings..
watching tele..
complaining about mac delivery LOL
then time to go meet parents le..
said bye to lynn and i missed her alr !!!
LOL

thats all for today !!!
:D
LOL
its 3 man..
tmr still haveta run errand hehe.
nights everybody !!!!

prom was awesome. :D

Wednesday, November 23, 2011 9:33 PM

omg..
proms over
my sleepovers over

sec 4 life is over

and prom was really fun

i cant even use words to describe how high all of us were LOL
even without drinking any stuffs..
just blast music .. relax and enjoy yourself !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i cant believe how much i have grown ...
its like .
these four years i have had so many experiences.
some very emo.
some very high
some really despressing.
some very angry
some very pitiful

but almost everytime.. i always learn more about myself
learnt to love myself.. more...
beyond what i have ever known.
learn when is the right time to place yourself in greater importance than others in your hearts.
and times where others feelings are more important than yours.

maai incident
yiyong incident
jingwen incident
gareth incident
karmen incident
barry incident
lynn incident

LOL every incident brought about reflection ..
and greater understanding ..
of... the world? lols
of many things..
different kinds of people you will meet as you grow older.
some selfish
some naive
some filled with jealousy

and i realised that
to me..
the bottom line would be..
who do things with the intention to cause hurt on others?
that would be the distinction between 'good' and 'bad' ... in a way ?
LOL tho sometimes even i dont follow that

there were so many happy memories too ..
i met life long friends.
and ill never forget them.
like never ever !!!!
the love care and kindness that they have given me
like omg

its a lot LOL

teachers in cwss too ..
ill never forget them.. !!
like they are so damn kind.
you can see how selfless they are for the students.
and so wise mature..

ms chia... i treated her as my older sister
mrs loh ... like a second mother
ms teo ... a . . . awkward person ..?

but mrs loh and ms chia have really helped me a lot ..

i cried to mrs loh
like tap water endless number of times... and she just kept encouraging me ..
there was once she simply walked past me .. then she backtracked and noticed something was wrong.. i wasnt even crying.. just ... felt so heavy !!

ms chia also kept writing me many encourgin notes..
i think theres like... more than 3 ..
and its like.. i didnt even ask for it or look emo or anything !!!!!!!
very very cool..

its like after common test one she thought i would be mentally drained so she wrote for me to cheer up ..
before that she also randomly talked to me ..
very very caring and understanding ...

AND I WILL REALLY MISS COMMONWEALTH A LOT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lazy to emo or reflect or post somemore bout reflection. or even colour hehe
next up!! PROOM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, November 16, 2011 9:42 AM

hi everybody
im feeling
weird

causee...
MY STUPID BODY CLOCK THAT I FORCED MYSELF TO GET INTO FOR THE DAMNED SAKE OF OLEVELS
MADE ME WAKE UP AT 730

and i slept at four.
:(

i couldnt even go back to sleep..
too happy to sleep..
or excited..
but my bodys feeling a little heavy now ..
LOL UNSTABLE

this morning i woke up ..
and brushed teeth
and looked at myself

its like a normal habit ..
to kinda plan how much work i wanna achieve on that day..every morning

and today.
it came upon me finally

omg
i can slack

and you know whats the worst part is?

singapores education system brought me up in a way that makes me feel like
i cant play

i have to study

or i wont have a future

so i feel guilty playing..
couldnt play in peace for like one year

and now
thanks to moe
I STILL CANT PLAY IN PEACE
LOL

its like an instinctual thing
habit ?
always limiting my fun

OKAY I STILL CANT BELIEVE IT
ITS SERIOUSLY LIKE FREEDOM FROM A CELL
but in another like 6months or so ...
im back into the prison again LOL
okay so LETS PARTY MAN LOL
BEFORE TIMES UP

i always feel happier when i type here..
and i dont know why
im even smiling now
thats a bit creepy for a bystander
then again . im always lost in my own world.

OMG I CAN SPEND ONE FULL DAY DAYDREAMING LOL

staring into nothingness
i always wanted to do that

okay i sound stupid

anyway yesterday was one of my happiest day ?
in a way
me ver lynn joey chloe
went dance room FOR FUN
then me and ver ended up teaching the juniors
but i still find it kinda fun
cause like they dance our syf dance
brings back A LOT of memories
de javuuuuuuuuuuu
all our efforts into this dance
i really hope they do well ...
friday im going back >.> to help out ?
limiting my prom shopping time...
AW MAN LOL

to be honest
like really honest
i didnt even think i should like ... be there .. and make the juniors do stuffs
cause like thats like

AIYA
OH WELL
IM STILL A SENIOR LOL
NOT VERY CERTIFIED BUT WHATEVER
LOL

i dont know if i should go back to ballet..
i doubt i can join my old class .....
and ballet grade 8 is really hard ....
i lost all my flexiblity .. whatever left of it LOL
and my strength ...
techinques.

play by ear

going to ver house was really fun too ..
i suppose the journey we took there was as long as the movie itself LOL
cause we wanted to buy all kinds of food
gong cha
tutu gui
mr bean
sharkfin soup
and rent dvd
so it was seriously
walking A LOT

but still worth it in the end :)
i was like the commentator LOL
cause radiance and ver didnt read the book before !!!
so it was really ...
LOL
i was a temp narrator.

and really really relaxing
we offed all the lights
watching in pitch black
and just like
it was nice not to care about time
for a while
no more looking at the clock and feeling guilty
staying out till 10 and mugging till midnight
nothing like that
just plain relaxing :)

ANYWAY
ITS TIME TO PARTY BABES !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1:49 AM

um .. im really sleepy ..
played A LOT.

from like ...
3 to 1030 ...
and 1030 to 2 ..
i just cant believe it
not even now

not even after screaming
laughing out loud
tearing our entry proof
celebrating with dancers
coming back to dance

no i cant believe it...

tell you more tmr !!!
i looove new moon
and really had a very very very very very fun time with
vernice radiance joey lynn chloe..
like whoa... :)
stayed out until 1030 in school uniform LOL
reached home at 11....
tmr another play day !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, November 14, 2011 5:22 PM

chinese..
jiang qing chu
shuo ming bai
xing fu gun gun lai

LOL my chinese sucks
anyway heard that on tele !!
i think its super meaningful !!!

hi everybody !!!!!!!!!!!

i feel..
like un afraid
over confident?
high self esteem ?
believe in myself a lot ?
im not sure myself

but its like...
im like..
not really overconfident.
i just feel that there nothing to be afraid of

like duh theres the car accidents flunk olevels etc etc
but i feel very happy now
LOL
the buzz of prom is on man !
today is many people last day of Os .
tomorrow is mine

can you believe it LOL
i never thought this day would come !
ever

my last day of Os is TOMORROW

oh well !!
bye !!!!!

Saturday, November 12, 2011 10:26 AM

i seriously wonder

like seriously
how many people know about this blog..?

from my side.
i can count the number of people with my fingers.
and my toes.

ive never advertised my blog on facebook
kinda kept this a secret
k not really .

in any case
how can i have more than 5people per day reading this blog ????
after not posting for practically two months !
like yeah there were like two of three posts . in 60days
but you get what i mean LOL

dont get me wrong
im happy that i have an audience
at least im not talking to a wall .
but i seriously have no clue whos reading this
cause no one actually talks to me about my blog. with the exception of vernice

the issue is !!!!
I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT ARE .... PEOPLE WHO READ THIS LINE IS THINKING
LOL
its kinda funny in a way
but i still cant believe it.
its like
i have like more than 30ppl reading this very post in one week
nope im not being proud
i bet other bloggers have way more than me.
considering the lack of pictures. LOL.
and inside information from my brain.

in any case
im still

surprised ?
or ... happy ?
or rather puzzled.
LOL

anyway .
my blog have always been some place where i clear my mind
k not always
for these few years
like i just do what i want
sometimes with regrets
sometimes without
or with happiness for this allowance for my freedom
to talk about my life for one essay and people are actually interested

so
this sounds weird
i always have a love for
non living things

imma tribute this post to the love of my blog !

tho it doesnt really have a choice. LOL.
it kinda is my dairy for 5years
and i will never delete it or change url LOL
unless microsoft/google/blogger dies
yeah man !

and i would like to thank you !
who ever is reading this
for actually bothering to read it .LOL

imma post another post above
but still thaaaank you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, November 9, 2011 10:50 AM

hi blog.
im feeling
WHOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
o levels is gonna be over
whoaaa....
whoa ...
whoa,,,
WHOAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I LOVE MY FRIENDSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
LIKE I MANAGE TO GET THROUGH THIS BLOODY HARD TIME
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
okay some idiots will say its easy but i dont think it is .

anyway
im feeling abit regretful .
i gave up on physics
:(
like duh i dint drop it .
but i just ... wanted to focus on other stuffs.
just now i was clearing my table..
then i like saw..
my past phys notes .. and hard work.
and im like
DAM I WASTED ALL THESE

lols
oh well
BLOODY SCORE FULL MARKS FOR MCQ MAN
BYE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, November 4, 2011 5:57 PM

okay
LOL
random

erm
HI EVERYBODY !!!!
HOWS LIFE
LOL

i just cant believe im even typing here LOL
ITS OLEVEL PERIOD
LOL

tho its like only one written paper left and 3 mcq.
but its Os

i seriously had ZERO
HAVE ZERO MOOD TO STUDY
meeting up with jingci chuxuan celeste later for dinner !!!

so im supposed to study
i think when Olevels end i wont believe it
ya duh in the past i thought i will cry

like cry out of like...
WHOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
as in not sadness. not happiness..
but cry for all the times i cried for olevels
LOL
quite ironic

anyway
now that the end is near
i seriously cant believe it
and i think i will actually miss the study sessions
seriously miss
in fact .
but whatever
HAHAHAHAHAHA
just go out more with friends then settle !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but im so giving all my friends bday presents that i should have given them.
and im also gonna give smaller presents to my other friends.
and prepare for my friends upcoming birthday
and play wii
play xbox
see korean dramas

its like
boom

okay this doesnt help me get motivated
its like i cant even sit down to study.
im stalking people.
celebrities
schoolmates

or randomly talking to my sister.

i seriously cant study.

okay i have to stop saying that i cant study.
cause i will physco myself into not studying

YEHLIN YOU MUST STUDY
FOR YOUR FUTURE.

walao i seriously cant wait until Olevels over.
but now i feel at loss of what to do after that
its like.
this whole month
free time = study time
one day ...
the only relaxing time i have would be
talking on the phone
bathing
eating
sleeping

the rest of the time... used for studying

omg am i becoming a nerd

okay
calm down EVERYBODY !!!!

today ate w vernice radiance reine siling
at BA KUAI ER YI
LOL.
i will miss school man

BYEEEEEEEEEEEE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5:50 PM

hi

whoa

i havent posted for so long

hahahahahaha
im at loss as of what to type.