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Monday, December 31, 2012 11:13 PM

I'm sick
And you know when you're sick everything is kinda a blur ..?
I remember the journey back home was really bad !!
I expectantly fell asleep in the mrt..
That wasn't bad enough..
I fell asleep in lrt journey from cck to south view while standing !!
LOL it's like I dk how to appeared.
My thoughts will register that I'm inside the lrt. Then suddenly I will 'lose consciousness.' Forget that I was there .. And when I woke up I realised that I was in the lrt!!!
So surprised that I didn't miss my stop.!
The best part was when I was walking from lrt station I kept sleeping too!!
But my legs kept moving !!
Every step was a torture !!
I would suddenly forget why I'm there and drift off.. Then reappear back there again.
Reached home bathed and slept LOL

But but but even so ..
Going to karaoke with gay okay was worth it!!! It was very very fun and stupid at the same time!!
Singing the same few songs from the night before tho LOL
In a way they are much more high than my classmates !!
But it was fun cause I would shout shout shout.. Then nap for 5mins.. Then shout shout shout. And nap for a while..
the cycle went on and on and on LOL
My photos came out bad too!! So sad !!
Rapping with Samuel was really really fun LOL
I think the climax of karaoke experience is always rapping !!
It's super super fun!!! Like you feel like a pro and master when you accomplish it !!!
Plus acting in a manly voice LOL
Singing 'stronger' was cool too!!!
And and they were all very very worried about me ..!! Awww

Went to foodcourt with them when I realised that I really needed to go home !!
Cause I fell asleep in the foodcourt LOL
While waiting for my friends to be done with their food!!
I mean how many people sleep in the food court !!!
When I woke up I was surprised to be there !!!

Now I should talk about 1215 sleepover OMG it was very fun but I REEEEALLY wish I weren't sick at that time so I could fully enjoy !!!
When we reached we watched Spider-Man three !!!!
But in the middle I needed to call for pizza
For the class dinner !!
Quite disappointed we didn't order enough .. :(
And I was advertising bananas the whole sleepover LOL

After that we collected mula and paid !!!
And I went for some praying thing !
I think going there is a very humbling experience !
It's like everyone will kneel before the shifu and receive blessing ! My family included !!
The people who has meditated will go into some sort of a trance !!
Idk why !! It was kinda scary but they were all used to it so I guess it was okay!!
It's like you meet more people there!! People who firmly believe in Buddhism !!

Went back and my dear class was singing Chinese songs hahaha while I was eating !!!
Smiled happily seeing all of them there !! 16 of them camping in that small room!!!!
All singing off tune together!
No one was shy!!
We all could hear everyone !!!
I could even heart the extremely soft spoken Andris sometimes !!!

During SS
We found out that
MY PRESENT BOUGHT FOR JULIAN
AND VAL KHOO SS FOR JUNHAN
IS EXACTLY THE SAME !!!!!
Haha pull and bear blue tee!!!!!!!!
And we were the only 2 who gave a shirt to our SS!!!!!!!!!!
And it was exactly the same design colour size
I kinda ....screamed? LOL astonishingly when I realised what happened
It's like not good cause same shirt ma!!!
Haha both val and i were very very surprised !!! But this just shows that both our tastes are so similar !!!
Hahaha everyone was very shocked!
They thought ken or someone was throlling them LOL
Hers was bought in Bangkok somemore! Mine Singapore !

Haha I received Royce chocolates from my SS JIE XIANG !!!
It was ... Kinda requested so it was cool!!
And I was very very happy with it still!!! Cause very very nice !!!!
Shared a bit with my class !!
Rest bring home for family hahaha
Needed speakers tho...!!

The girls gave each other presents too!!!!!!!
The only person that didnt give was Val Ong !!
The rest all gave each other !!
But it's okay!!!
Jingyi present was for every individual so it made it so much sweeter !!!!
She gave me a ballet necklance that I love very very much!!
Shall post the photo soon!!

The night continued with singing
Then movie
And card games
But by then I was really really quite sick alr so I just... Drifted !
Kinda !
The card game part was fun tho!!!
Haha in the end 7 of us stayed up till 7!!!
Me Val Ong junwen Junhan Vong ken Yangyao
But at 7 I crashed !! Too tired !
Slept till 8 only !!
First time sleeping with male classmates Around so I was rather shy!! LOL

Woke up and I REEEEALLY wished I could stay. Cause they were all just stoning in that cosy room watching nice MVs!!
Felt alr sick..! And very tired!
But I still went !! And it was worth it !!

I feel that 1215 is really close alr !!!
It's like one outing 17 turned up.. 11 slept over !!
We don't need to fill our silences with conversations anymore !!
Silence isn't awkward!!
Just peace!
Or stoning !!
And we talked about anything
K mostly we were conplaining about how tired we were
Or hungry
And then the guys will always move on to shitting habits .
How to shit.
And farting .
LOL
And we all just laugh about it
All quite Sui Bian !!!

I will really miss David as part of our class tho.! He always brought an extra spark with him!!!
Okay he's still part of us but we won't see him much .. :(

But the time spent singing and listening was still awesome !!!!

Haha there was this grand moment the talented and awesome yicheen was playing the piano and guitar and omg
It sounded very very very nice
Haha Idk how to use words to explain music ..??
Tinge of playfulness and pure happiness .?
Some songs were supposed to be sad and sounded very blissful.. At peace!!
Junhan was stunned !!! Very very stunned !!! By her talent !!!

And went we left the room
Oh my we heard the screaming and shouting into the mike
And we concluded that that was hell and inside the room was heaven :D

Long post cause I didn't wanna forget anything
Goodnight !!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

Saturday, December 29, 2012 2:03 AM

Went out with the prettiest bestest kindest CSS dance girls yesterday !!!
I typed one long post but it wasn't saved so I retype!!

Initially spent the time dating jinggy !!!
She taught me how to make cockiness nicer! The new dance.
Hit the beats hard
And actions hard and soft .
I tried imparting that knowledge today !!!

Then we bonded a lot !! Talked a lot !! Played a lot !! Joked around !!!

I will skip to the main points k
Met up with them
Sand fight. Sat by the shores and talked.
It was so nice !!!
First we all had to dance 1-2 times !!
Jinggy danced 3 times tho LOL
Like do our school choreo!! Cause we are all kinda the main-Er? dancers from our cca part!!!
Just play music and danced one by one or in groups
It was hard to balance but very very nice to see the dances and very fun .!!!
Lynn and jinggy was really really good.
My idol!!

Then we sat together and each of us had to say a story about what happened this year.
All of us shared!!
And I think when we shared we all got closer !!!!! Like we know so much more about our lives !!!

Chloe helped me
Something I won't forget she said
"A breakup is good cause you can appreciate your friends more"
And omg it's damn true
I know to some people it's obvious.
But sometimes you need the truth to be said !!
And she also told me a lot of things to help me !!!!!
I really really liked it !!
Even after I reached home she sent me a message ! Like to help me and everything

And I think that the feeling of not being alone. Like you have your friends
Chloe. Jingwen. Lynn. Jon. Going through similar things to you
It makes you feel .. More supported !
Stronger !!

I had to leave them early but I really miss them and enjoyed the day so much!!

Just now smth happened and I was quite upset !!!
But but
Omg my CHARACTER EYE CANDY WROTE ME A POEM
YES LUCKY ASS !!
Haha okay I should calm down
I mean how many people eye candy talks to them ..??

And and okay I have 2 eye candies.
Another one waved to me today !!! And smiled
And omg I acted cool and nodded
HAHAHAHA
then blushed and jumped after walking past.
Haha that one looks so awesome yo.
It's like those Korean show guys

I am very very proud and happy !!

And thanks for all all my friends who know and care for me !!!!
From sugar pie honey bunch all of them!!!! To og. To classmates. To dance mates. To Jon jinggy xav. Jinx Xukai junwen Syron too!
I have confidence in my self yo!
Determined to love my friends !!!!!

I can do this !!!!!




















Friday, December 28, 2012 10:25 PM

I never knew songs could make me cry.
I've never felt the full impact before !
Probably cause I can't relate to many sad songs
But i know how to relate to heart broken songs alr !!
And it's really sad !!

I realised that it's VERY VERY HARD to understand the feeling of heart break !
It's like .. Very cannot understand unless you go through the same thing !
It's as if some part of you is torn. Taken away. Thrown ! Ripped into million pieces! And sometimes you can literally feel your heart ache.
It's like if your beloved grandparents pass away also very hard to relate !!!

Anyway what made me feel worse is the fact that
I know I'm the fool
Who sits alone
Talking to the moon..
Whereas he's somewhere else enjoying himself with someone else !
I don't even need to wonder if I'm talking to myself.

I will put the lyrics here if you guys wanna see!!
Search for the song on YouTube it's suuuuper nice !!!!

Talking to the moon - Bruno mars

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think
I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have

Chorus:

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say
I've gone mad
Yeah
I've gone mad
But they don't know
what I know

Cause when the
sun goes down
someone's talking back
Yeah
They're talking back

Chorus:

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

Ahh Ahh,
Ahh Ahh,

Do you ever hear me calling?
Cause every night
I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you

In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away

Thursday, December 27, 2012 3:22 AM

It has been tough

But today was so nice !!
Like I met up with og then dancers then og
And they are very kind.!
It's like we needed to say a story about ourselves..
And I said I had 3 but saying the last one would hurt me.
Then they were just like "then don't say"

And omg it's so easy to maintain a conversation with them !!!!
Especially Joey
Whoa I talked to her from chomp chomp to lorong chuan.
Conversations not stop .
It's like endless topics
Not one moment of hesitation.
And I didn't like put in much effort to maintain the conversation .
I just replied whatever I felt like and she continued.
It's like so easy ^^
Then then
Syron was pretty kind too
Waise .. Haha me and him close le so doesn't matter.
Nic was hilarious LOL a worthy partner haha
I think both of us will have a lot a lot of fun during orientation .!!!
Haha it's like we started scolding each other alr
Walk past or talk a bit and we are like "YOU WATCH OUT HOR"
Haha it sounds act beng but it's really fun!!!
Lydia ... :( sad story !
Justin is great either ways !!!!!
Haha

We all were at udders near chomp chomp in the darkness gossiping and saying stories until 930pm !!
But I didn't know like 80% of the people they were saying... So I'm just like WHUT.
Still fun tho!!! I just listened in !

Dance was .. Omg so much less stressful without Bryan ...
I could dance without feeling scared .
You know the feeling??
It's like having a bomb above you waiting . So much stress ..
I think we dance very well but hais
Apparently not up to standard !!!
Of course it wasn't perfect but I thought it was good!!!
Anyway the 1 hour and half was ten times better than 2 hours with him.

Xukai junwen talked to me.

And cause today Waise in my og.. So we bonded too!! Continued where we left off at USA ^^

I like to think of myself as a impenetrable force.
Like if you tell me secrets.. I will never ever say out. Unless I'm alone with you!
Even tho when others share secrets I AM tempted to say stuffs too.. But it's not my thing to tell!!!

And and in my whole life.
I have only really fallen first for one guy.
I DONT KNOW WHY
I never expected this to happen.
But it did !!!

Wednesday, December 26, 2012 3:54 AM

Maybe god has given me this opportunity .
To leave someone who .. I knew I will leave
Turn me into someone mature

I mean seriously
I had 3 ex
And it's no exaggeration.

1 was a person who self mutilate .. A LOT.
Cut himself up. At stomach shoulder hands.. I'm very very glad that he is better now.! But yeah first one was a nightmare

2 possessive dude.
Very very possessive. Checked all my messages. Compared all the timings. Everything. When I left him.. I really felt a sense of freedom.

3 this current one. Bastard who breaks my heart. Changed after I agreed to stead with him. Experienced real real real heartbreak.

And after 30min of crying from finding out the truth.
Yes I'm proud that my crying time has decreased from multiple hours to half an hour..

I just .
Get the feeling that ..
I'm like waiting for someone really really good. And I'm supposed to be mature !
Understanding !

I mean by 17 which girl on earth experience a depression. Possessive. And heart breaking relationship.
Dude no one!

Okay so mature is done .
Now to invest my efforts into studies.
Meet a great guy at uni.
And be happy.

I just feel that 'my' Lester is .. Like gone. Dead. He changed this year..
And I waited one year for him to come back. But he didnt.
So I will cherish the past memories and move on.
He can do whatever he like on his dates with that new girl he met within a month.
The Lester I know won't treat me like this
The Lester I know won't flirt with girls so carelessly.
Maybe it was me to made him more comfortable with girls
Last time so shy and everything.
360 change.

I'm done being with a guy who doesn't understand and care.
I'm done being with a guy I was never truly able to understand.
Cause he never opened up to me.
Never told me his innermost feelings.

Dead.
I knew I would have to break up with him one day. Especially after how much I tolerated this year.

I just didnt expect to be replaced so easily.

But hey?
Time for YehLin to learn more.
Time for YehLin to learn about being dumped.
Then having her 'boyfriend' going out with another girl while he treats me like crap.
From gold to crap.
From late night calls to me.. Now it's another girl.

I think this is the breaking point.
It's the point I feel truly free from the relationship. In love with a dead man.
Not man... Boy.
I don't feel like I owe you anything anymore.
I got my wish. After praying 2 years ago.
Both of us can be truly happy now.

Tuesday, December 25, 2012 9:01 PM

maybe it's cause I'm surrounded by things that remind me of him. Or maybe it's cause I've dated him for 2 years.
DUDE HOW DO YOU GET OVER SOMEONE SO EASILY
it feels so inhumanly possible !!!!!

I'm not gonna like scold him or anything!
I just DONT GET IT!!!

How do guys trot away so happily after 24 months of being together.
Don't bother to talk.
Don't bother to contact.

It's like every memory is forgotten.
And the bond is totally broken
Like into emptiness !
Nada !!!!
Gone !!!!!!

I mean yes break up is a break up.
And I kinda initiated it. You kinda agreed to it. And then you initiated it.

BUT I DIDNT EXPECT IT TO TURN INTO NOTHING SO FAST!!!!!!!

As in .
How do guys trot away from relationships like nothing .???
I regret almost everytime there's a break up.
And it would take me months to heal!!!

Now I have examples of guys just treating a relationship like nada !

It's just impossible !
It's like I'm done trying to overcome seconds
I'm okay with hours
But every 2 days I would think of it seriously once!
Haunted by memories
As in isn't that the normal thing ?????

I will never understand how guys can move on so easily man !

On a separate note

I really really love my friends !!!
Whenever I talk to them I automatically feel happier !
And I like it a lot when people take the initiative to talk to me.
It's like
HEY IM WORTH THEIR TIME.
And not yours
Gaaaaaaah I don't get it!

I even like conversations on twitter whatsapp!!!!

Today a friend did something very sweet for me ^^
Hahahha so in some ways I'm happy friendship has gotten closer !!!
And I can't wait for our friendship to be better !!!!!!

Okok feeling happier now !!!
Haha I like it when I see that people appreciate me !!!

Bye !!!!

Monday, December 24, 2012 12:25 AM

If you wanna be pretty. You can be.
If you wanna be smart. You can be.
If you wanna dance well. You can be.
If you wanna heal yourself. You can do it.
If you wanna ... Finish your holiday homework. You can do it.

Many things start with recognizing that it's really in your ability and your total control to do it.
There's no such thing as your actions or feelings are out of your control.
Only situations are susceptible to change.
And it's really up to you how to want to turn the tables around.

If you want to gain confidence.
If you want to be confident. You can be.

I believe in myself ... A lot LOL
I believe that I can be anyone I want.
Have any character I approve.

It can be called over confidence.
Or it can be just a way to make oneself happy.

I mean isn't feeling satisfied with yourself the main aim of everything .?
As long as you're happy with things means you have accomplished something ! And you should be proud of it.

I was .. A very ugly girl LOL
A girl with very very bad character.
But I'm glad I believed in myself and changed !!!

Oh ya changing is not a sign of weakness.
And it's not an excuse !
Why hold on to something that isn't good just for your pride !

Now I believe that I will heal!
And I think I will !
Ballet brought be confidence ..!
Now to use this for my studies. Street. And perhaps feelings.

Trust yourself and your opinions.
Don't keep making excuses for others.
Especially if you know you're right.

Yay!!!!






Sunday, December 23, 2012 11:25 AM

I dreamt that my dad disowned me.
And I realised that no matter what's the worst thing that can happen to me.
Nothing can top that.
I remember how distraught I was.
Even when I woke up I was still immersed in the dream ...
Only after a while it was better.

I also dreamt that he left me.
Both things happened at once.
But I didn't give a shit about him at all.
Cause my family is my anchor.
And I strongly realise that now..

In my dream I was back in the RSLE trip.
It was fun but stressful.
I dreamt that mark lim scolded us.
And in that moment I accidentally made things worse.

After that I told this guy who I liked
And we both had a laugh and everything
Surprisingly..
I have no clue who the guy is.
I just know it isn't him. Cause I know I had confidence in the guy that I told.
This also means that I got a taste of a happy love again!

Then I had lunch with my class.
Very few girls were there..
So I felt a bit weird. Alone.
But the class guys still all sat together and ate.
And I was involved in the conversation .. Very actively.
It was like that day in the canteen we had a conversation too!!!
At that moment I felt the unity and strength and kindness of the class.

So..
Dreams have a way of healing yourself too. ^^

Saturday, December 22, 2012 10:08 PM


3:31 AM

These few days have been really fun and happy for me until I can't really keep track!!
Been feeling sleepy but happy !!
Yesterday was really really fun!!
Shopped for SS and ended up shopping for myself LOL
Had fun !!!!!!! :D
Free dessert LOL

I'm at a chalet now and and
If I don't post it means I'm too busy enjoying myself and not posting LOL
Today there's chalet !!
Tomorrow meeting Val cool then making ankle guard!!
Friday meeting Lynn . Going dance. Then meeting Andris !!
Busy busy
No time for work!!
Oopes !!!!

But I'm happy !!!!!
:D
I still miss things tho~














3:30 AM

Today is Lynn's birthday !!!
Spent a bit of time with her and play with her
And to be honest I don't really need her physically there to feel her presence.
Something like god?
You knows she's cheering on you anyways.
Didn't really talk much surprisingly.. Talked about dance. A bit of other stuffs hahaha
And we both complain that we had lack of sleep.

I'm trying to use this post to mark the end of me mentioning relationships.
But I just find it really really sad that..
You know they say the best part about love is actually the chasing part.?
I believe it's true too!
But it's not right. It's a pity that the 'excitement' is gone once 'the guy got the girl'
Guys might be like ... I own the girl now so I no need to anything to chase her.
And the girl won't have any excitement at all cause the guy doesn't really do stuffs anymore.
Excitement is gone because there is no more doubts about the love.
The girl won't be like "oohh does he like me.?" She is just like "yeah he likes me."

Which I think it's really sad..
Cause there ought to be a deep sense of joy and relief when you confirm that the person you have feelings for you in the same way.

Maybe it's cause everyday I'm reflecting on what happened~
How a perfect relationship. Late night calls. Walks home. Surprise cards. Encouragement.
Turned into this~

And I'm still bitter about the ending.

What makes me feel worse is knowing that I'm possibly the only one who still cares.
Left there on my own.

I hope I won't anymore.
But the more I tell myself not to.
The more I do.
And it makes me upset.. Every night.

On the second hand
I have the ability to be sad about something and give incredibly great focus on the present task ahead of me.
Dance and studies.
And I hope I will excel in both.

Today shopped with Andris Yongxiang Junwen
Andris opening statement
"Who is cjx?"
Really made my day LOL

Had lotsa fun with them tho!!!!!!
Talked talked walked walked
At first I was really shy hahaha
First time meeting class guys outside.. Without a class ?
But then I just got used to it cause I'm close to all 3 of them!!
Finally decided on my SS present.!!
And then walked super long with my dear sweet Andris .
Lepaked at this sports shop for really long.
Just sat there and scratched my mosquito bites LOL
Discussed what would Andris mortal like.
Reenact his behavior in many situations LOL

Wanted to buy for him a nice looking underwear since he Zao geng so often. Everyday ? Two days?
Bright red or yellow haha
Or branded like Calvin Klein .
So when we see it and it's branded.. It's okay :D and allowed

Considered belt and white bags
Both failed due to his behavior hahaha
Lazy. Easy going.

Talked to yx on the way home. Really really long.
Haha talked about many stuffs
My stuffs .
His stuffs
His stuffs made me really happy tho.
But his trust in me is higher than i expected ! Telling me secrets..
Anything can happen~

Sleeepy !!! Goodnight !!!

Monday, December 17, 2012 9:58 AM

I find myself slipping back into my old habit of being overly dependent on my phone.
Probably cause it's the only thing in my house that's interactive and full of updates and changes.
But still... I'm wasting so much time playing !!!

Time to start mugging .

I miss bintan.
And I remember this boy who was very attached to me hahaha. I piggybacked him until next day hand ache was really bad. But he was so damn cute!!
Like he will stand behind you and wait and smile like the happiest boy in the world. you know he wants a piggyback LOL
Then he will climb on and direct me to wherever he wants to go. Like point to something. Eg switches. Stuffs that he normally have no height to reach!!
He would play with the switches by flicking it on or off and my dear class would play along by cheering when the lights are on.. And jeering when the lights are off. LOL
We could only communicate so much ! ><

I miss Bintan and 15. :)
But I'm gonna see them again next year!!!
So it's okay!!


Sunday, December 16, 2012 4:50 PM

(in case you are viewing this blog through a com...
my title for this post is. SHOULD BOYFRIENDS GO OUT WITH OTHER GIRLS?)

I have been thinking about this for the longest time.
And decided to post this post instead of studying.hehehe

My final answer is...
Yes.

But before potential assholes think that I am the perfect person to be cheated on. Or that i am an ideal person to be ONE OF their current girlfriends.

My answer is with reservations.
And
Conditions :D

Haha nothing in life is so easy dudes.


CONDITION NUMBER ONE

the boyfriend MUST tell the girlfriend when he is going out with another girl.
MUST.

a number of you will think that this is kinda.. duh.
i mean which boyfriend or girlfriend would want their partner to secretly go out on a date with the opposite gender alone.
at least if u are.. just tell !
its so much better if your partner hears it from you..
than another friend whos like
'eh you and her got problem ah?
how come she go out with your buddy?'
that will be like....

yeah..

there is a small group of you who rather not know that yourpartner is going out on a date secretly.
cause ignorance is bliss right?
i agree that you do feel happier not knowing .. but do you truly want that?
to not know at all ..?
i think the answer is no!

condition number one is a must.
and trust me
some guys DO NOT KNOW THAT THEY NEED TO TELL

so any girls out there reading this..
you can show this to your boyfriends in future~

CONDITION NUMBER TWO

no physical contact WHATSOEVER with another outsider who's not your girlf/boyf

i mean if like your hands accidentally sweep past each other thats a .. bo pian~
but no holding hands or hugging or anythiing at all.
this condition is kinda self explanatory ?
i shant elaborate any further!

CONDITION NUMBER THREE

NO texting that other person CONTINUOUSLY during your own dates.

in my opinion.. its rude to chat with other people through your phone when your with someone else alone. so yeah..

CONDITION NUMBER FOUR

 he/she cannot be neglecting the partner for that period.

like if youre going out with another girl on wednesday..
you cant not bother to talk to your girlfriend for that week.
it doesnt make sense ma.
for a guy to be going out with another girl a lot and not bother to talk to his own girlfriend through messaging or calling.
how will the girlfriend feel? :(

yeap !

i forgot one last condition alr ><

i dont think these are very hard to fufil..
its all kind common sense.
tho its sometimes better to spell things out rather than silently expect
so if your partner is not following any of these ...
dump him/her.

but all these are my own opinion anyway :D
everyone differs i guess
i just hope my conditions are kinda basic

and and and
im proud to say .
i wont mind if my partner goes out with another gender if if if he follows all the conditions.
cause theres a difference with friendship and relationship ma!
the feeling that you get when youre with different people is kinda incomparable.
if the bond between two lovers is strong. i think its okay :D

I only learnt of this after everything that happened.!
like fully understand this feeling.
controlling your own jealousy?
so i hope you guys learn from my experiences so you dont have to go through the same shit i did!

its like i think that if he/she is truly against and absolutely hate the fact tht their partners go out with another person..
it just means that he/she does not have confidence in the relationship.
of course.. whether its which side fault for the lack of confidence.. is another story.
i know cause i felt this before!

tell me your feelings regarding this post k..!!
im very very curious :D


 
damn the guys who mistreat their girlfriends~

Saturday, December 15, 2012 9:19 PM

I have no title for this
I guess it will probably be friends

Or not
Hehe
Okok ill just spam random thoughts for now and type whatever I want !!!

George said I gotten skinner !!!
Yes I know it's not a praise but it felt like one to me ..!
Like idk. It's a bit .. Funny. Weird !!
Like I'm sure it's cause of what happened then I slimmed down.
Which is kinda dejavu? Cause this happened before !!!
That time I really slimmed down a lot LOL

I'm not proud of it but its just like .. Interesting !!
and don't worry I will gain weight very quickly cause my mood nowadays quite good LOL

And
My ankle is injured.
I don't know why.
Even tho half the time I forget about the nagging pain.
But it IS painful !!!!
Like when I'm not dancing and walking
After a dance especially .
When I dance .
This pain have been here for ages. Just less serious.
Recently it's getting really really bad.
Like I must get an ankle guard ASAP.
I do limp a bit when I'm alone. But I don't like limping when I'm with my friends cause ... It's something like aa. Or idk. Like its not VERY bad. But it's just like pain lor.
Of course some people might be thinking .. If u think its AA then why do you announce on your blog ..
And I am here to say

My blog have been mine since p6!!
So I just write whatever I want !!
As in as long as its not like damn bad or anyth !
So it's like how I have an attachment to this blog. And it's like sometimes u will think that it has a life.
Just like how u think your soft toys might understand you and hug you!!

LOL YES I KNOW I SOUND STUPID
anyway this post is not starting off as happy as I planned LOL
It's just I was typing this and walking around so I say!!

So so so
Today I am proud of myself !!
Cause I played a key role in my dances!!
Both dances.!
Basically it's cause of my memory LOL
They danced two dances I like !!
Ballet - variation 2 intermediate.
Dance - Girl hip hop
So so so it's like I practice on my own for fun LOL
It's like my favourite dances !!!!

Can search the ballet one on YouTube if you're really bored!! Hehe I'm dancing that for exam next year!!
Of course along with so many other exercises....

Anyway anyway haha before I start my complaining .

It's like so cool!!!
Haha like I teach the girl hip hop starting !!
:D
And like edit and clean up.. A biit!!!

Then variation 2 they were copying me cause I know the dance !!
Even my teacher looked at me to recconfirm!!! Cause her memory not very long term!!

It's like when one whole group do.. It's like waaaaaaaaa
Haha I think my dance standard is improving !!!
Don't think my street will ever be up to Yung Wui standard tho.
But I will try!!
Have more control. And .. Sassiness ? LOL
Don't look front too much. That's what Limin told me!

So it's like today is a good dance day cause I get to dance 2 dances I like.
Happy!!

But tired.
Cause yesterday I stayed up to type the post!!!! :O
HAHHA don't worry I'm not blaming anyone !

Talked to George darrin Xukai Sam a bit today. I like talking to them.!!
Being stupid with George . Having fun conversations with Samantha !!! It's like idk how ican always think of stuffs to talk with her about !! All the random things.
I like her character. Her easy going self. Kindness.!!
Then today I talked to the ballet mates on my way home!!
It was so cool!!!!
Like we bond over jokes. Laughed !!!
Lepaked in the room for one and half hours!! Playing random ballet songs and dancing !!!
Haha just laugh laugh laugh
Then me Cheryl Celeste took the bus together and talk talk talk.
After that Cheryl left and me and Celeste talked talked!!
Celeste was telling me about a friend of hers !! Hehehehe
And it's like we really had fun!!
Like talk then laughlaughlaugh ended off laughing !!

And she's from St Nics!!
And I wanna announce here my adoration for St Nics girls!!!
They are awesome !!
No it's not a propaganda !!
It's like the girls from there in ny is really kind and they don't have evil thoughts !!
It's like they will just talk and play and very very easy to bond with them!!!!!
Of course in every community there might be a minority tho !!!

Hahahah

Anyway.
I wanted to post on the main thing that saved me during my Thailand trip!!!!
It was remembering all my friends and everything they have done for me !!!
Of course opening my eyes and seeing the world too!
Having family too!
But it was also friends!!

It's like it was souvenir buying time and I was like .. Who should I buy for ???
Then I realised I came up with really a lot of people and I thought of many many friends !! That still want to be my close friend now !!!

I will say their names
And my best memory with them!!
Some I won't :D

Lynn - BFF duh
Ver - BFF duh
Jon xav jinggy - family

Class girls - idk okay too many good memories. The steamboat that day. In Bintan at nights. Kbox. Normal in LT during lessons. Recess. Them listening to my problems. Heart to heart talks.

Okay that can go on and on if I were to talk about them individually.
But yes at that point I remember every stupid funny memory I had with each of them :D

Class guys - jw ken yx - conversations :D

1215 in general la haha alr like I love them so much
Except... One...

Anyway!!!! LOL
I'm gonna wrap this up quick cause I thought of another post.

Gay okay
Girls I had conversations with each of the girls individually one way or another! Or even in close group conversation !!
And I know that they are all really really nice people ! Like kind and everything !!
So so so I love them!! And I believe I can be close close friend if given the opportunity! Like in their class! But it's okay!!!! I have my class!!
I don't talk to all the guys in gay okay!!!
But I do like them!!!!
And the best part about the whole clique is that we kinda know all the shit about each other.. But we close many eyes and still take the effort to make everyone happy !! And at times. We accept the person for their flaws and still love them!! Cherish them!!

Gah so sleep~
Next clique is pri sch clique !!
Chuxuan jingci Celeste Cheryl!!
I will never forget how they celebrated birthday for me ><
I feel so bad not giving back anything!!!!
We meet up so little !!! :(
So I am giving back souvenirs !!
I miss being with them!!

Next would be Xukai and jinx.
Hehehehe

I did think of 4m friends too but I don't think we are really close as a clique yet !
I'm more close to them individually !!!
Radiance siling especially !

There's random friends like joey .. Daniel too!!!
Haha he ah.
Almost same mentality as me
Even the extent of stupidity.
I think he is smarter tho.
Like knows more stuffs. General knowledge.
Unlike me he spends more time on videos and art. Whereas I'm stuck to a phone talking about my personal opinion and not others.

Okay I hope I can stay awake for the next post and sound as persuasive as I planned !!!

4:18 AM

LOL OMG I FORGOT THATTHE MAIN IDEA FOR THE POST IS HOW THANKFUL I AM FOR MY FRIENDS LOL
Hahaha
Now it makes me sound so unappreciative !!!
I was thinking about writing this post since mid Thailand trip!!!
LOL
Cause there was an incident that reminded me !

OKAYIF I START I WON'T STOP SO I WILL STOP.
Who ever is reading this !!
Thanks for reading this.... Meaningless post LOLpointless ..? Hahaliterally !

4:06 AM

LOL IT IS 3.36am AND I AM AWAKE NOT CAUSE I AM EMO DAMN IT
IT IS BECAUSE ..
I am attempting to split
YES IM NOT CRAZY YOU NON DANCER PEOPLE.
LOL
Lots of inflexible loser dancers do it cause .. They are inflexible !!!

So I am doing it and I can't sleep LOL
stop freakingg out hahaha

Posted the conversation in the pictures

The ANNOYING thing about phone blogger app is that I can't put pictures near my words. So you guys have to scroll down to see and link


I have several pictures below !!!
Most is for humor LOL

One picture is of Junhan controlling his shit. With a real real constipated look.

Another one is the Si da tian wang unglam photo and credits to Val Ong

Some random scenes from Indonesia and Thailand .

There's this picture I took for fun. LOL
One bacon strip and many fruits to neutralise the shit I ate.
It's to emphasize how damn naturally healthy I eat most of the time.
NOT CAUSE I'm afraid of getting fat.
It's like how I don't drink coke.
It's not cause I'm afraid of diabetes.
It's just cause IT FEELS LIKE IM EATING POISON.

BLAME MY PARENTS FOR CHANTING THAT INTO MY EAR LOL
Ever since I was in sec sch.
And my parents learn how extremely toxic coke it.
EVERYTIME I drink a fizzy drink.. They will be like

WhydoyoudrinkPOISON
WhydoyoudrinkPOISON
WhydoyoudrinkPOISON
WhydoyoudrinkPOISON
WhydoyoudrinkPOISON

YES LOL
SO IT'S DRILLED INTO ME.

Now it's on to fried food.
I hope my love for cereal prawn will maintain tho

Oh yeah I wanted to say

It's like when I go to the orphanage .
I saw how much kids had without A PHONE.
Without an electronic item.

It's like we were given mineral bottles to drink from!! And they took off all the caps to play a game .. Like pool.
Everyone first reaction was like
Omg how to drink finish all the water
Or
Walao why the kids waste water bottle
Or
Walao the kids so inconsiderate

But my main or only thought I had was
DAMN THEY'RE COOL AND SIMPLEMINDED LOL

I mean THEY HAD FUN WITH MINERAL BOTTLE CAPS .

DUDE
Do ANYONE in Singapore do things like that alr?
Be happy with such a low budget..?


Haha so I dare say that I want to learn from them their independence from electronic items.
As u or anyone know
I AM VERY DEPENDENT ON IT

no I should learn!
Concentrate on dance
My family time
My friends time.

And not stay cooped up to a phone.

And since I just said that

BYE !!!
Cross my fingers I will survive 5 hours of dance tomorrow ....
Dance + ballet
LOL so screwed

Enjoy the pictures !!! It brings me happiness !!