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since 1st jan 2009
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Wednesday, December 26, 2012 3:54 AM
Maybe god has given me this opportunity .
To leave someone who .. I knew I will leave
Turn me into someone mature
I mean seriously
I had 3 ex
And it's no exaggeration.
1 was a person who self mutilate .. A LOT.
Cut himself up. At stomach shoulder hands.. I'm very very glad that he is better now.! But yeah first one was a nightmare
2 possessive dude.
Very very possessive. Checked all my messages. Compared all the timings. Everything. When I left him.. I really felt a sense of freedom.
3 this current one. Bastard who breaks my heart. Changed after I agreed to stead with him. Experienced real real real heartbreak.
And after 30min of crying from finding out the truth.
Yes I'm proud that my crying time has decreased from multiple hours to half an hour..
I just .
Get the feeling that ..
I'm like waiting for someone really really good. And I'm supposed to be mature !
Understanding !
I mean by 17 which girl on earth experience a depression. Possessive. And heart breaking relationship.
Dude no one!
Okay so mature is done .
Now to invest my efforts into studies.
Meet a great guy at uni.
And be happy.
I just feel that 'my' Lester is .. Like gone. Dead. He changed this year..
And I waited one year for him to come back. But he didnt.
So I will cherish the past memories and move on.
He can do whatever he like on his dates with that new girl he met within a month.
The Lester I know won't treat me like this
The Lester I know won't flirt with girls so carelessly.
Maybe it was me to made him more comfortable with girls
Last time so shy and everything.
360 change.
I'm done being with a guy who doesn't understand and care.
I'm done being with a guy I was never truly able to understand.
Cause he never opened up to me.
Never told me his innermost feelings.
Dead.
I knew I would have to break up with him one day. Especially after how much I tolerated this year.
I just didnt expect to be replaced so easily.
But hey?
Time for YehLin to learn more.
Time for YehLin to learn about being dumped.
Then having her 'boyfriend' going out with another girl while he treats me like crap.
From gold to crap.
From late night calls to me.. Now it's another girl.
I think this is the breaking point.
It's the point I feel truly free from the relationship. In love with a dead man.
Not man... Boy.
I don't feel like I owe you anything anymore.
I got my wish. After praying 2 years ago.
Both of us can be truly happy now.
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Wednesday, December 26, 2012 3:54 AM
Maybe god has given me this opportunity .
To leave someone who .. I knew I will leave
Turn me into someone mature
I mean seriously
I had 3 ex
And it's no exaggeration.
1 was a person who self mutilate .. A LOT.
Cut himself up. At stomach shoulder hands.. I'm very very glad that he is better now.! But yeah first one was a nightmare
2 possessive dude.
Very very possessive. Checked all my messages. Compared all the timings. Everything. When I left him.. I really felt a sense of freedom.
3 this current one. Bastard who breaks my heart. Changed after I agreed to stead with him. Experienced real real real heartbreak.
And after 30min of crying from finding out the truth.
Yes I'm proud that my crying time has decreased from multiple hours to half an hour..
I just .
Get the feeling that ..
I'm like waiting for someone really really good. And I'm supposed to be mature !
Understanding !
I mean by 17 which girl on earth experience a depression. Possessive. And heart breaking relationship.
Dude no one!
Okay so mature is done .
Now to invest my efforts into studies.
Meet a great guy at uni.
And be happy.
I just feel that 'my' Lester is .. Like gone. Dead. He changed this year..
And I waited one year for him to come back. But he didnt.
So I will cherish the past memories and move on.
He can do whatever he like on his dates with that new girl he met within a month.
The Lester I know won't treat me like this
The Lester I know won't flirt with girls so carelessly.
Maybe it was me to made him more comfortable with girls
Last time so shy and everything.
360 change.
I'm done being with a guy who doesn't understand and care.
I'm done being with a guy I was never truly able to understand.
Cause he never opened up to me.
Never told me his innermost feelings.
Dead.
I knew I would have to break up with him one day. Especially after how much I tolerated this year.
I just didnt expect to be replaced so easily.
But hey?
Time for YehLin to learn more.
Time for YehLin to learn about being dumped.
Then having her 'boyfriend' going out with another girl while he treats me like crap.
From gold to crap.
From late night calls to me.. Now it's another girl.
I think this is the breaking point.
It's the point I feel truly free from the relationship. In love with a dead man.
Not man... Boy.
I don't feel like I owe you anything anymore.
I got my wish. After praying 2 years ago.
Both of us can be truly happy now.
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my P R O F I L E
the initials are YL.
dear reader,
hello. how are you? my name is cyl aka jaslly a cranky female. im going to be 14 on 2703 of 2009, but for now, im currently living the number 14.
when i am officially 15, another year down till my peaceful death at 80. And , i love dance a lot.
although i am living in ward 14, i go to 2/5 of commonwealth room daily. this is the place where i usually get more hyper then usual. i really like the people there and learnt many things from them for my encaged life.
however much i dislike the adults there, i have to learn to like them . i also learn subjects like english maths chinese that i dread a lot.
no matter what, i will still miss the old 6a of cckps where there were psychologists, siewyi jane cheryl chingwei yanting minghui magdalene sinyi. all the fun happy naive times there are missed greatly by this mentally unstable person.
oh well, im still enjoying my life full of ups and downs .
:D
a strange person,
jaslly.
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being F O U R T E E N
14 random facts about me.
ONE basically this section is really random.
TWO i am seriously lack of sleep.
THREE majority of my life is being rotted away.
FOUR im not gonna be a saint and claim that i have no hates.
FIVE i hate people who hate me. seriously
SIX i dun tink there is anything else i hate.
SEVEN as usual, i like the people around me.
EIGHT when im angry/sad/afraid, my fingers turn cold.
NINE when im bored, i like to eat.
TEN but im not as fat as you think. =)
ELEVEN i am seriously bucking up for all my studies.
TWELVE i will score higher for all my subjects.
THIRTEEN this column is really random.
oh yea. last and least
FOURTEEN one fact you may not know ... im beginning to .. enjoy studying . =D
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2009 R E S O L U T I O N S
i shall try my best to enjoy the year.
will be updated at later date.
=D
2008 R E S O L U T I O N S
my weird wishes.
1. a never ending 2007
2. my last day in cckps a fun one
3. to get rid of mdm teo
4. have a enjoyable year being a newbie as a commonwealthian
5. to have a good teacher ms wong rocks
6. for everything to stay as good as it is
--there were ups and downs, but i am still happy!
7. STAY HAPPY AND LAUGH 4EVA!!!
--i might seems crazy if that happens . :D
8. be more hardworking successful?
9. save more $$ for new handphone
10. NOT get addicted to computer i am not ! =)
11. stop being stupid and do weel in exams
12. try to have sufficient amount of sleep this will be never
13. improve chinese?
14. cherish stuff as it is...
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chua chu kang pri school .
i miss it.
i guess this column will be here forever.
there is ISNT
a lesson in cckps FOREVER
not more friends
teachers
the one and only day i will go sch as pernormal.......
is only in my dreams.....
where everything was fun and exciting....
sometimes boring upset
but no more days other than that..........
On 22 nov 2007...
the last and final day of sch...
my presence in this school will cease to exist
those corridors i have grown accustomed to...
will all belong to someone else
i guess thats wad graduation means...
its the same as PARTING
all i got to say now
thank you for all the fun you've given me
thanks for your guidance and help
THANK YOU for your presence in my life
GOODBYE and we shall meet again in
the..F.U.T.U.R.E !!
6A is missed =)
thank you. :D
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