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Saturday, December 22, 2012 3:30 AM

Today is Lynn's birthday !!!
Spent a bit of time with her and play with her
And to be honest I don't really need her physically there to feel her presence.
Something like god?
You knows she's cheering on you anyways.
Didn't really talk much surprisingly.. Talked about dance. A bit of other stuffs hahaha
And we both complain that we had lack of sleep.

I'm trying to use this post to mark the end of me mentioning relationships.
But I just find it really really sad that..
You know they say the best part about love is actually the chasing part.?
I believe it's true too!
But it's not right. It's a pity that the 'excitement' is gone once 'the guy got the girl'
Guys might be like ... I own the girl now so I no need to anything to chase her.
And the girl won't have any excitement at all cause the guy doesn't really do stuffs anymore.
Excitement is gone because there is no more doubts about the love.
The girl won't be like "oohh does he like me.?" She is just like "yeah he likes me."

Which I think it's really sad..
Cause there ought to be a deep sense of joy and relief when you confirm that the person you have feelings for you in the same way.

Maybe it's cause everyday I'm reflecting on what happened~
How a perfect relationship. Late night calls. Walks home. Surprise cards. Encouragement.
Turned into this~

And I'm still bitter about the ending.

What makes me feel worse is knowing that I'm possibly the only one who still cares.
Left there on my own.

I hope I won't anymore.
But the more I tell myself not to.
The more I do.
And it makes me upset.. Every night.

On the second hand
I have the ability to be sad about something and give incredibly great focus on the present task ahead of me.
Dance and studies.
And I hope I will excel in both.

Today shopped with Andris Yongxiang Junwen
Andris opening statement
"Who is cjx?"
Really made my day LOL

Had lotsa fun with them tho!!!!!!
Talked talked walked walked
At first I was really shy hahaha
First time meeting class guys outside.. Without a class ?
But then I just got used to it cause I'm close to all 3 of them!!
Finally decided on my SS present.!!
And then walked super long with my dear sweet Andris .
Lepaked at this sports shop for really long.
Just sat there and scratched my mosquito bites LOL
Discussed what would Andris mortal like.
Reenact his behavior in many situations LOL

Wanted to buy for him a nice looking underwear since he Zao geng so often. Everyday ? Two days?
Bright red or yellow haha
Or branded like Calvin Klein .
So when we see it and it's branded.. It's okay :D and allowed

Considered belt and white bags
Both failed due to his behavior hahaha
Lazy. Easy going.

Talked to yx on the way home. Really really long.
Haha talked about many stuffs
My stuffs .
His stuffs
His stuffs made me really happy tho.
But his trust in me is higher than i expected ! Telling me secrets..
Anything can happen~

Sleeepy !!! Goodnight !!!