She might not teach very well 

She might not look super pretty.

She can be super offensive and annoying.

She can sound nonchalant 

But she has immense kindness within her. 

Sometimes I wonder why do people like being in love so much. What so great about love. Why are people in love with the idea of people in love 

But I figured 

Everyone wants to be special to someone that they feel is special to them. 

And it's nice I know youre loved 

Your presence appreciated.

What anyone can do for the want they love.

What can I do for the one I like ?

If I even like. 

How can things feel like a magnet

doing things based on instincts. 

Losing all rationality.

On the other hand I gained the trust of a girlfriend today !!! So happy hehe 

K I must not lose that trust!!! 

So much to study 

Gp gp gp 

Today mr low talked to me.

He told me my Maths isn't good.

Really really bad

I've been going downhill from integration

Not that I disagree

I quite like him actually 

He's a good teacher !!! 

But he said something

If I don't get things right now.

June holidays miracles can't work 

I will do badly for Alevels

Which really really scares me

I guess reality haven't hit yet

Alevels are coming.

No matter what.

And there's no way of escaping.

My last national exam under this darned government education system. 

I have to do well

I didn't reply the confession cause I AA or whatever 

I mean it look me 2 hours to decide? I just stayed at yukei house and kept asking ver yukei 

The options was between

Don't reply 

Reply 

And don't reply will mean that I choose to ignore cause obviously my friends would have shown it to be with my big big name there

It appeared in every single chat LOL 

Og. Class. Dance. Woodlands clique.

So it was either I choose to ignore or I reply

And I think it's really sad for the dude if I chose to ignore cuz if you see the post it's like the dude don't even dare talk face to face and his only alternative was to go anonymous.

So if I don't reply even the anonymous one it would just be damn sad cause the courage to post was for nothing

On the other hand 

With Nyjc confessions read by at least at least 100 people everyday

A single wrong reply would mean that I would be judged 

Misjudged everyday by 100 people

Which obviously sucks

So I came to the conclusion to reply short

That 3 words took 2 hours LOL

And I'm very surprised so many people like my comment up till this very next day!!!!! So coooool

Hmm

Anyone will think that yehlin being 

"Experienced" will understand a lot about love.

That may be true to some extent. 

Maybe in some ways than others

But I feel that I've yet to fall in love too!!!!!

Because from sec 1 to sec 4 I realize that I "loved" my exes cause I was in love with the idea of being loved

Yet very stupid selfish and stuffs

But I promise I tried to make every relationship last till I reached my limits. 

It's just that sometimes when I look back at them

I wonder what did I like about them

Even Lester. K Lester probably less. He is a good guy and very filial after all.

But suited for me ?? Nope. No way. 

So many examples I could bring about now that I'm looking back

But I shan't dwell on it !! 

I haven't been in a relationship where I've fallen for the guy first.

For his attributes. Character.

It's not who is the better man.

It just who is the more attractive one ?

More like a personal choice. 

I wonder if I've met him. 

Let me say my ideal guy qualities kk :D 

Kind to everyone

Compassionate 

Strong determination

As mature? As me hahaha

As stupid as me

And have to think for me.

Idk if it sounds very demanding actually haha 

But it's like especially the last quality 

Sometimes have to put yourself in that person shoes to try and understand the person. 

If he has hurt me I want him to realize and not me crying alone.

Which is something obviously lacking in Lester. Forgive me for ranting but that guy seriously treated me like crap throughout J1.

Anyway anyway 

I'm just not sure of anything

But I think love is potentially very very strong. Like it can help overcome anything. 

Hehe 

I really wanna post more but I should do other stuffs. 

Bye !!!!

And 

I feel sleepy

But this time I'm really so behind time. 

For everything. 

Have to cry, grit my teeth and continue.

I swear to certain guys I can seem like.. A possible good partner? 

But to my family papa mama sis

To Jon Jinggy xav Lynn

I'm forever this little girl who has buck teeth 

Talk like I'm drunk

Forever high

Very stupid 

And a newest flaw 

Bad complexion HAHAHAHA

It's like I'm forever this childhood dumbo who has so many stupid memories 

Not that I don't treat them that way either hahaha

When I told Jon about the confession 

He was like

When I told my parents 

They roared with laughter 

Literally 

Like my dad was slapping his thigh while driving the car 

It's like they could never dream that their girl could ever be treated that way hahahaha

Like it's evidence that I have grown up

And when I look in the mirror

I still see Yehlin

Full of flaws

Full of scars 

Trying her best to build stronger bonds with friends

Trying to study 

Loving to dance

Suck in relationships 

Sometimes insecure 

Sometimes insensitive 

Always trying 

Hehehe 

And if I die one day. Anyone who's reading this must show this blog to my family k! 

Let them see how happy I am and how contented I am with my life haha

Not that I wanna die anytime soon tho. 

So much more to experience !!!

But I need to study now 

Hahaha and I've been slacking for so long 

Gonna get some food and really study

Sushi for anyone ? :D

Many happy things

It made the past 3 days feel like 6

It's like I can't believe it's only Friday 

I just met up with Lynn 

And she's like a part of me 

Inseparable 

I think if I ever leave her I will cry harder than I did for any of my horrible exes 

But I got a feeling that will never happen

Until the day one of us die 

^^ 

It's strange cause I don't have as many common topics with her like I have with ver 

But we still talked and I just loved her presence

Her outlook on life

How much she understands

How she feels guilty when she leave outcasts alone 

I can never hold a candle to her. 

She told me she was worried 

But my dear I'm very sure you will be fine

At the last part before we leave both of us hug

And it was so sad

I wanted to cry LOL

Sometimes I think I'm strange hehehe

I know she will trust me to make the right decisions. And she supports me no matter what. Just like my other closer friends and family

It's like from them I gain strength and feel happy !!! Without their physical presence.

Of course if they are present it makes me so much happier.

Which brings me to my ...

USS TRIP WITH MY FAMILY !!!!

It was too awesome 

The interesting part about my family is 

My mama and sis is one team 

Team afraid of everything

Me and my dad another team

Team unfazed by everything

Though I think unfazed is an overstatement

 HAHAHA 

But still much better than my sis and my mama 

It's like we split up 

Me and my dad went to sit the TRANSFORMER RIDE !!!!!

And it was SO COOOOOOL !!!!!!!!!

Haha words can't even express !!!!!

It's like really entering the screen !!! And screaming !!!!!!!!! And the wind and sound and 3D feeling !!!!!! It's so real I wonder if the screen opened to let me in!!!!!!!! 

Omg when I came out I just screamed and skipped and jump and hop and I didn't give a shit about being judged cause I was so damn happy and excited

It was a pity my dad didn't want to take a second time hahaha he said it was too loud. But he really loved the ride too!!!!!!

We went to watch shrek the 3D movie and omg I was like dying cause I had stomach cramps

DAMN BAD CRAMPS

like I had to squat down while waiting for the show 

And then at the start there is like this introduction clip which took so damn long I wanted to just sit down 

Plus I saw everything before !!!

So I was really in pain then

But whatever the show was so damn nice and my mum and sis screamed so much I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY LOL

It was funny to hear them scream tho hehehe

I was so disappointed that mummy ride didn't work :( 

And I was quite disappointed at myself cause I kinda scolded me dad in the heat of the moment. Cause he wanted to take photo of me mama and sis and he was holding back like 50 people just to get the right angle and count 1.... 2... 3..... Slower than any granny could count. 

After I scolded him I felt so so so so so bad 

I promised myself I will make it up by bonding a lot more with him

Which I did !!!!!

Haha and the great thing about parents is that they forgive you instantly.

And then my dad continued laughing within 5 minutes again. 

Which is what I love about him.

The whole ambience was so cool and I was so happy like a kid I didn't even realize I was like a kid until Jon told me hahaha 

It's like I went to USS with my ballet friends once cause we perform in YOG ceremony 

Then I went USS with Lynn Jon Jinggy xav

And now the third time I go with my family

And my family was quite happy too!!!

Haha I tried my best possible to influence my family k

Photos posted later !!!!!

Next I will talk about

CHOIR CONCERT !!!!! 

I wanna give my two cents or.. One cent? Hehe on the whole issue

Since I'm kinda a opinionated person~

So I will start from a dancer view.

Yes they did not deserve to win.

Not one bit.

For reasons

One : repetition

I don't think the audience realized this as much as a dancer did. The steps were so so so so similar. So much head swinging and attempts at groove.

 The chorus was entirely ripped off for the second time. About 25seconds was the exact same step for the next 25 second

I mean no no no no dance show EVER does that.

The last time I did it was for my talentime in primary 5 I performed Oops I Did It Again. Yeah that was the same when I was 11.

I figured they got the same choreo for chorus idea from our mass dance and some kpop idols? But mass dance is for the masses. And kpop idols choreo is so damn good nobody mind seeing it a million times. Not a chorus without any energy and steps that seemed like it was taken from ndp.

Second reason

Copied from the net 

It wasn't a dance cover. It was attempt to be original in dance without any acknowledgment then it was ripped off from the net.

And yes the dance was so damn similar.

Even the "climax" the scream

The steps

And third reason

The other contestants were all better dancers than them. Of course this is assuming that they judged based on dance skills.

But on the other hand 

There are strong reasons why they should win

One: they had the guts

Which is seriously a lot

Which 18 year old without any dance background would dare to stand right in front of his schoolmates and wait to be judged by them? Especially the lead guy. I could tell he was fearless. Which is something I respect.

Two: they are inspirational 

To non dancers of course

It is concrete proof that non dancers can succeed. Non dancers can be acknowledged. Appreciated. As long as they have enough hardwork determination and drive. We could all see their hardwork

Three : zero experience

Which kinda "shoot" back the copy argument

Dancers can scold them all they want for ripping off a video of great widely known dancers.

But what experience did they have ??

Nothing.

If they don't copy off the net. Or at least gain some ideas from the net. How can they know where to start? How to start? The basics of dance. How there must be a climax. How is being neat important. How to be confident on stage. How to get some groove and the audience cheering.

And thus 

My final conclusion is no conclusion

HAHAHAHAHAHA

I can sympathize with both sides

On one hand it does seem very disappointing to all dancers that a group without originality or skill.. Can win a group with girls who are lead dancers in their schools. 

But on the other hand. They are so inspirational and determined and they succeeded in entertaining and engaging the audience. Which is commendable for non dancers 

Soo... Taadaaa

So much to study hehe

Goodnight !!

Okay very satisfied. 

Pleased 

Happy. 

Enjoying every moment of my life now.

Even the time during lessons.

Cause every time I feel sian I can simply have a 20second funny conversation with my girl friends Or play fun run for 1 minute. And life feels good.

I have everything I want now

Everything. 

Everyday it's kinda allocated to a friend. 

Which is like WHOA 

Ver takes 2 days in my week.

A takes one day.

My class guys/girls who randomly stay take one day too! Or so~

And when I reach home early my family is so happy. Laughing over stupid things.

Wa I felt so jealous when I heard roars of laughter from my dad mum sis while watching running man. Hahahaha but it's okay! 

Today my dad is really cute. And still kiddish

Cause it rained so he send me to lrt.

Helped me carry my bag. And trotted along and smile "I'm going to schooooool."

Hahahahaha this obviously made me roll my eyes.

He also ask me if I wanted to wrap my feet in plastic bag cause scared shoe wet.

I was like "omgggg papa I 18 years oldd"

Hahaha I sounded like so... Duh!

But inside I felt a deep sense of joy. 

Today my class had pe.

And you know when 1215 have pe it's always damn funny. 

LOL it's like laugh until. 

Damn jialat.

Ken behavior is really funny.

Alvin too.

The other team was good too!!!

Haha and there wasn't animosity!

Everything was kinda fun.!!!

Plus I'm really freer now too!!! So more time for bonding with different friends and studying!! Makes me really happy every second is one or the other.!

I also feel better when I prioritize my class and ver. It's like at least I know I'm not torn in many directions and doing badly in all. Better to have less but stronger bonds than many friends we less bond !

But I'm really bad on probability !!!

Have to buck up! 

Maths test next week.

But still

I feel happy.

Okok study!!!

Can you imagine dealing with people feelings in school. Having so much feelings to consider. Trying my best to help out.

And then I have my own problem in school. The thing that made me cry like some fucking dog.

Once I reach home I need to see my fucking paranoid sister.

Who whines about every fucking thing on earth. 

Accuses me and annoys me of every shit. 

And guess what? I can't even scold that bitch cause I'm worried for her fucking sanity.?

What about mine?

Life have been so suffocating lately. 

With school stuffs and home stuffs. 

My only temporary relief is when I'm out of school and out of home. 

That would be bliss for a few hours.

I don't wanna fucking give a shit about your feelings alr. Helped you so many fucking times. What about me ? 

Ok I don't even know how to further like say 

I bought 

A black studded shorts

Black long sleeve sparkly top

White dress (simple) 

A few days ago.

Today 

After watching Jingwen dance 

Me and Chloe went shopping and we talked a lot a lot a lot !!! 

Like caught up and we talked about religion :) :) it's like so much! 

But also talked abou other things hehehe

I'm just glad that she is happy now !

And then 

I bought 

Khaki long sleeve top 

Black leather shorts 

3 white pink purple socks for school

Black dress (heart shape back) 

And omg I had such a hard time choosing if I wanted to wear the white dress or the black dress for choir concert !!!!!

Hahahaha the black dress is nicer but black is damn damn common like..

50% of girls there will be black and we will all look like carbon copies.

So white will be nicer. 

But black dress looks nicer !!!!! 

So I'm unsure !!!! Most likely wearing black dress tho. It's too awesome ! 

Hahaha happy worries in life

Ok gotta Pom and study 

Haven't studied one whole day!!! So much to do!! So satisfied today ^^

I suddenly made a trip back to the past. 

At this time 3 years ago.

Ok earlier than may

My ex will steal glances at me LOL 

And it's really funny cause sometimes he didn't steal he just stared.

Then all the teachers knew and the whole class knew 

And I suspected but I wasn't sure. 

There was once I sat beside him during Amaths before we got together. 

In sec 3 I think .

I disturbed him and the whole class went like woooooooo LOL 

Times where everything had a sort of excitement. 

That might change when you enter a long relationship. 

Heh he left me with so many happy memories and unhappy memories. One day I will have enough strength to look back upon the whole thing without any sense of loss.

She might not teach very well 

She might not look super pretty.

She can be super offensive and annoying.

She can sound nonchalant 

But she has immense kindness within her. 

Sometimes I wonder why do people like being in love so much. What so great about love. Why are people in love with the idea of people in love 

But I figured 

Everyone wants to be special to someone that they feel is special to them. 

And it's nice I know youre loved 

Your presence appreciated.

What anyone can do for the want they love.

What can I do for the one I like ?

If I even like. 

How can things feel like a magnet

doing things based on instincts. 

Losing all rationality.

On the other hand I gained the trust of a girlfriend today !!! So happy hehe 

K I must not lose that trust!!! 

So much to study 

Gp gp gp 

Today mr low talked to me.

He told me my Maths isn't good.

Really really bad

I've been going downhill from integration

Not that I disagree

I quite like him actually 

He's a good teacher !!! 

But he said something

If I don't get things right now.

June holidays miracles can't work 

I will do badly for Alevels

Which really really scares me

I guess reality haven't hit yet

Alevels are coming.

No matter what.

And there's no way of escaping.

My last national exam under this darned government education system. 

I have to do well

I didn't reply the confession cause I AA or whatever 

I mean it look me 2 hours to decide? I just stayed at yukei house and kept asking ver yukei 

The options was between

Don't reply 

Reply 

And don't reply will mean that I choose to ignore cause obviously my friends would have shown it to be with my big big name there

It appeared in every single chat LOL 

Og. Class. Dance. Woodlands clique.

So it was either I choose to ignore or I reply

And I think it's really sad for the dude if I chose to ignore cuz if you see the post it's like the dude don't even dare talk face to face and his only alternative was to go anonymous.

So if I don't reply even the anonymous one it would just be damn sad cause the courage to post was for nothing

On the other hand 

With Nyjc confessions read by at least at least 100 people everyday

A single wrong reply would mean that I would be judged 

Misjudged everyday by 100 people

Which obviously sucks

So I came to the conclusion to reply short

That 3 words took 2 hours LOL

And I'm very surprised so many people like my comment up till this very next day!!!!! So coooool

Hmm

Anyone will think that yehlin being 

"Experienced" will understand a lot about love.

That may be true to some extent. 

Maybe in some ways than others

But I feel that I've yet to fall in love too!!!!!

Because from sec 1 to sec 4 I realize that I "loved" my exes cause I was in love with the idea of being loved

Yet very stupid selfish and stuffs

But I promise I tried to make every relationship last till I reached my limits. 

It's just that sometimes when I look back at them

I wonder what did I like about them

Even Lester. K Lester probably less. He is a good guy and very filial after all.

But suited for me ?? Nope. No way. 

So many examples I could bring about now that I'm looking back

But I shan't dwell on it !! 

I haven't been in a relationship where I've fallen for the guy first.

For his attributes. Character.

It's not who is the better man.

It just who is the more attractive one ?

More like a personal choice. 

I wonder if I've met him. 

Let me say my ideal guy qualities kk :D 

Kind to everyone

Compassionate 

Strong determination

As mature? As me hahaha

As stupid as me

And have to think for me.

Idk if it sounds very demanding actually haha 

But it's like especially the last quality 

Sometimes have to put yourself in that person shoes to try and understand the person. 

If he has hurt me I want him to realize and not me crying alone.

Which is something obviously lacking in Lester. Forgive me for ranting but that guy seriously treated me like crap throughout J1.

Anyway anyway 

I'm just not sure of anything

But I think love is potentially very very strong. Like it can help overcome anything. 

Hehe 

I really wanna post more but I should do other stuffs. 

Bye !!!!

And 

I feel sleepy

But this time I'm really so behind time. 

For everything. 

Have to cry, grit my teeth and continue.

I swear to certain guys I can seem like.. A possible good partner? 

But to my family papa mama sis

To Jon Jinggy xav Lynn

I'm forever this little girl who has buck teeth 

Talk like I'm drunk

Forever high

Very stupid 

And a newest flaw 

Bad complexion HAHAHAHA

It's like I'm forever this childhood dumbo who has so many stupid memories 

Not that I don't treat them that way either hahaha

When I told Jon about the confession 

He was like

When I told my parents 

They roared with laughter 

Literally 

Like my dad was slapping his thigh while driving the car 

It's like they could never dream that their girl could ever be treated that way hahahaha

Like it's evidence that I have grown up

And when I look in the mirror

I still see Yehlin

Full of flaws

Full of scars 

Trying her best to build stronger bonds with friends

Trying to study 

Loving to dance

Suck in relationships 

Sometimes insecure 

Sometimes insensitive 

Always trying 

Hehehe 

And if I die one day. Anyone who's reading this must show this blog to my family k! 

Let them see how happy I am and how contented I am with my life haha

Not that I wanna die anytime soon tho. 

So much more to experience !!!

But I need to study now 

Hahaha and I've been slacking for so long 

Gonna get some food and really study

Sushi for anyone ? :D

Many happy things

It made the past 3 days feel like 6

It's like I can't believe it's only Friday 

I just met up with Lynn 

And she's like a part of me 

Inseparable 

I think if I ever leave her I will cry harder than I did for any of my horrible exes 

But I got a feeling that will never happen

Until the day one of us die 

^^ 

It's strange cause I don't have as many common topics with her like I have with ver 

But we still talked and I just loved her presence

Her outlook on life

How much she understands

How she feels guilty when she leave outcasts alone 

I can never hold a candle to her. 

She told me she was worried 

But my dear I'm very sure you will be fine

At the last part before we leave both of us hug

And it was so sad

I wanted to cry LOL

Sometimes I think I'm strange hehehe

I know she will trust me to make the right decisions. And she supports me no matter what. Just like my other closer friends and family

It's like from them I gain strength and feel happy !!! Without their physical presence.

Of course if they are present it makes me so much happier.

Which brings me to my ...

USS TRIP WITH MY FAMILY !!!!

It was too awesome 

The interesting part about my family is 

My mama and sis is one team 

Team afraid of everything

Me and my dad another team

Team unfazed by everything

Though I think unfazed is an overstatement

 HAHAHA 

But still much better than my sis and my mama 

It's like we split up 

Me and my dad went to sit the TRANSFORMER RIDE !!!!!

And it was SO COOOOOOL !!!!!!!!!

Haha words can't even express !!!!!

It's like really entering the screen !!! And screaming !!!!!!!!! And the wind and sound and 3D feeling !!!!!! It's so real I wonder if the screen opened to let me in!!!!!!!! 

Omg when I came out I just screamed and skipped and jump and hop and I didn't give a shit about being judged cause I was so damn happy and excited

It was a pity my dad didn't want to take a second time hahaha he said it was too loud. But he really loved the ride too!!!!!!

We went to watch shrek the 3D movie and omg I was like dying cause I had stomach cramps

DAMN BAD CRAMPS

like I had to squat down while waiting for the show 

And then at the start there is like this introduction clip which took so damn long I wanted to just sit down 

Plus I saw everything before !!!

So I was really in pain then

But whatever the show was so damn nice and my mum and sis screamed so much I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY LOL

It was funny to hear them scream tho hehehe

I was so disappointed that mummy ride didn't work :( 

And I was quite disappointed at myself cause I kinda scolded me dad in the heat of the moment. Cause he wanted to take photo of me mama and sis and he was holding back like 50 people just to get the right angle and count 1.... 2... 3..... Slower than any granny could count. 

After I scolded him I felt so so so so so bad 

I promised myself I will make it up by bonding a lot more with him

Which I did !!!!!

Haha and the great thing about parents is that they forgive you instantly.

And then my dad continued laughing within 5 minutes again. 

Which is what I love about him.

The whole ambience was so cool and I was so happy like a kid I didn't even realize I was like a kid until Jon told me hahaha 

It's like I went to USS with my ballet friends once cause we perform in YOG ceremony 

Then I went USS with Lynn Jon Jinggy xav

And now the third time I go with my family

And my family was quite happy too!!!

Haha I tried my best possible to influence my family k

Photos posted later !!!!!

Next I will talk about

CHOIR CONCERT !!!!! 

I wanna give my two cents or.. One cent? Hehe on the whole issue

Since I'm kinda a opinionated person~

So I will start from a dancer view.

Yes they did not deserve to win.

Not one bit.

For reasons

One : repetition

I don't think the audience realized this as much as a dancer did. The steps were so so so so similar. So much head swinging and attempts at groove.

 The chorus was entirely ripped off for the second time. About 25seconds was the exact same step for the next 25 second

I mean no no no no dance show EVER does that.

The last time I did it was for my talentime in primary 5 I performed Oops I Did It Again. Yeah that was the same when I was 11.

I figured they got the same choreo for chorus idea from our mass dance and some kpop idols? But mass dance is for the masses. And kpop idols choreo is so damn good nobody mind seeing it a million times. Not a chorus without any energy and steps that seemed like it was taken from ndp.

Second reason

Copied from the net 

It wasn't a dance cover. It was attempt to be original in dance without any acknowledgment then it was ripped off from the net.

And yes the dance was so damn similar.

Even the "climax" the scream

The steps

And third reason

The other contestants were all better dancers than them. Of course this is assuming that they judged based on dance skills.

But on the other hand 

There are strong reasons why they should win

One: they had the guts

Which is seriously a lot

Which 18 year old without any dance background would dare to stand right in front of his schoolmates and wait to be judged by them? Especially the lead guy. I could tell he was fearless. Which is something I respect.

Two: they are inspirational 

To non dancers of course

It is concrete proof that non dancers can succeed. Non dancers can be acknowledged. Appreciated. As long as they have enough hardwork determination and drive. We could all see their hardwork

Three : zero experience

Which kinda "shoot" back the copy argument

Dancers can scold them all they want for ripping off a video of great widely known dancers.

But what experience did they have ??

Nothing.

If they don't copy off the net. Or at least gain some ideas from the net. How can they know where to start? How to start? The basics of dance. How there must be a climax. How is being neat important. How to be confident on stage. How to get some groove and the audience cheering.

And thus 

My final conclusion is no conclusion

HAHAHAHAHAHA

I can sympathize with both sides

On one hand it does seem very disappointing to all dancers that a group without originality or skill.. Can win a group with girls who are lead dancers in their schools. 

But on the other hand. They are so inspirational and determined and they succeeded in entertaining and engaging the audience. Which is commendable for non dancers 

Soo... Taadaaa

So much to study hehe

Goodnight !!

Okay very satisfied. 

Pleased 

Happy. 

Enjoying every moment of my life now.

Even the time during lessons.

Cause every time I feel sian I can simply have a 20second funny conversation with my girl friends Or play fun run for 1 minute. And life feels good.

I have everything I want now

Everything. 

Everyday it's kinda allocated to a friend. 

Which is like WHOA 

Ver takes 2 days in my week.

A takes one day.

My class guys/girls who randomly stay take one day too! Or so~

And when I reach home early my family is so happy. Laughing over stupid things.

Wa I felt so jealous when I heard roars of laughter from my dad mum sis while watching running man. Hahahaha but it's okay! 

Today my dad is really cute. And still kiddish

Cause it rained so he send me to lrt.

Helped me carry my bag. And trotted along and smile "I'm going to schooooool."

Hahahahaha this obviously made me roll my eyes.

He also ask me if I wanted to wrap my feet in plastic bag cause scared shoe wet.

I was like "omgggg papa I 18 years oldd"

Hahaha I sounded like so... Duh!

But inside I felt a deep sense of joy. 

Today my class had pe.

And you know when 1215 have pe it's always damn funny. 

LOL it's like laugh until. 

Damn jialat.

Ken behavior is really funny.

Alvin too.

The other team was good too!!!

Haha and there wasn't animosity!

Everything was kinda fun.!!!

Plus I'm really freer now too!!! So more time for bonding with different friends and studying!! Makes me really happy every second is one or the other.!

I also feel better when I prioritize my class and ver. It's like at least I know I'm not torn in many directions and doing badly in all. Better to have less but stronger bonds than many friends we less bond !

But I'm really bad on probability !!!

Have to buck up! 

Maths test next week.

But still

I feel happy.

Okok study!!!

Can you imagine dealing with people feelings in school. Having so much feelings to consider. Trying my best to help out.

And then I have my own problem in school. The thing that made me cry like some fucking dog.

Once I reach home I need to see my fucking paranoid sister.

Who whines about every fucking thing on earth. 

Accuses me and annoys me of every shit. 

And guess what? I can't even scold that bitch cause I'm worried for her fucking sanity.?

What about mine?

Life have been so suffocating lately. 

With school stuffs and home stuffs. 

My only temporary relief is when I'm out of school and out of home. 

That would be bliss for a few hours.

I don't wanna fucking give a shit about your feelings alr. Helped you so many fucking times. What about me ? 

Ok I don't even know how to further like say 

I bought 

A black studded shorts

Black long sleeve sparkly top

White dress (simple) 

A few days ago.

Today 

After watching Jingwen dance 

Me and Chloe went shopping and we talked a lot a lot a lot !!! 

Like caught up and we talked about religion :) :) it's like so much! 

But also talked abou other things hehehe

I'm just glad that she is happy now !

And then 

I bought 

Khaki long sleeve top 

Black leather shorts 

3 white pink purple socks for school

Black dress (heart shape back) 

And omg I had such a hard time choosing if I wanted to wear the white dress or the black dress for choir concert !!!!!

Hahahaha the black dress is nicer but black is damn damn common like..

50% of girls there will be black and we will all look like carbon copies.

So white will be nicer. 

But black dress looks nicer !!!!! 

So I'm unsure !!!! Most likely wearing black dress tho. It's too awesome ! 

Hahaha happy worries in life

Ok gotta Pom and study 

Haven't studied one whole day!!! So much to do!! So satisfied today ^^

I suddenly made a trip back to the past. 

At this time 3 years ago.

Ok earlier than may

My ex will steal glances at me LOL 

And it's really funny cause sometimes he didn't steal he just stared.

Then all the teachers knew and the whole class knew 

And I suspected but I wasn't sure. 

There was once I sat beside him during Amaths before we got together. 

In sec 3 I think .

I disturbed him and the whole class went like woooooooo LOL 

Times where everything had a sort of excitement. 

That might change when you enter a long relationship. 

Heh he left me with so many happy memories and unhappy memories. One day I will have enough strength to look back upon the whole thing without any sense of loss.

Amanda
Andrea
Andrew
Azrina
Camellia
Cheryl
Chingwei
Chuxuan
Chloe
Daniel
Jason
Jeidy
Jiayi
Jieling
Jingci
Jingwen
Jodie
Joey
Jolene
Karmen
Keita
Keni
Lin
Liyin
lucy
Lynn
Madeline
Minghui
Muntat
Munyee
Nicole
Pearlyn
Pearlyn senior
Rachel
Radiance
Rebecca
Reine
Regena
sebastian
Shuyun
Siewyi
Simin
Siumin
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Weijun
Winnie
Xavier
Yukei
Zoey