On my way to kovan melody 

I keep wanting to post about Taiwan

But everytime I wanna post

I read vernice blog

Then happy happy le LOL 

Last night I laughed to myself at 3am oh myyyy 

Laughed out loud 

Hahaha very sweet tho hehe

"I kinda freaked out but I didn't show it cause yehlin was like "I trust you" "

Hahahaha it's kinda touching hehe and so funny to know the other side of the story 

Cause I swear I didn't know that she lost her way for a while

I thought she was super super super sure where she was walking 

Like even when we went to like the dark areas. 

And then when we reached the lighted areas I was like "omg sense of direction so good. Able to navigate through dark streets and places we didn't go before" 

Plus seriously

If I went with Lynn we cooonfirm GG 

Lynn can't navigate through Bugis street 

Much less the giant night markets in Taiwan that she has never gone

Like I imagine going there with her and getting lost every single night market. 

Which is a bit scary in a foreign place. 

Haha but I also love Lynn laaaaaa

Anyway 

Yesterday was such a good day

I am freaking amazed

Okay today is kinda planned to be a good day

Cause I'm meeting my favourite guys 

And and I'm meeting Jinggy Jon tonight

Miss vernice thoooo <3 

But yesterday wasn't planned 

And it went so well... 

Firstly went for this interview at bradell mrt. Sph. I wasn't late !!!!!!!!!!!!! Clap clap clap

The interview went well 

Okay sort of 

I lost my Olevels cert 

HAHAHAHA okay not a laughing matter 

But I will find it tonight or Tmr k

So I couldn't give like any real authorized results to the interviewer of sph. 

And they need a real smart person to do their stuffs cause he explained to me their job scope. 

Out of three people. I was second in place. Which I guess it's okay. Since I didn't bring my cert aiyoh 

Oh anyways 

The interview went smoothly tho

Confident. Small chat. Bubbly everything. 

Like I'm put in this situation whereby I need to be very open and confident

Okay strangely enough 

Somehow I feel more confident after the interview 

Like no longer mopey 

Then after that I bumped into 

Yesterday I had my first day of work 

Wa trust me 

Working at a seafood buffet at Mandarin Marina on an empty stomach is torturous. 

It's like you have to throw away all the food on their plates 

There was this moment I had to throw away like 5 fresh pieces of salmon sashimi completely untouched. 

Wa it took me all my strength not to put it in my mouth LOL 

I'm not saliva conscious~ 

I guess that made it really hard. It's like testing my mind. Torturing it LOL

Okay enough of being melodramatic 

Bottom line is 

Now that I'm on my way to work I must must eat later man 

It's a waitressing job at a buffet. Seven per hour. 6.00pm to 11/12.30am

Today I'm working to 12.30! Then they will drive to doorstep yay!!! 

Buffet jobs are always good cuz there's only three main job. 

1. Give plain water hot/cold

2. Give coffee/tea 

3. Clear plates 

But that's not the only best part about this job

For starters 

At the start of the week you can choose when you want to work and which day you don't want to! Like just tell the manager 

Secondly

I AM WORKING WITH LYNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHA yay!!!!!

I was a bit disgruntled cuz my partner in my designated area was slacking a bit. So I mouthed the word "the old uncle SLACKING" to Lynn

And me and her laughed hehe like through a glass!!!

okok bye !!!!!!!
 

I didn't bother keeping track of time or date. 

The only thing I was aware of was morning afternoon night. Sometimes I keep track of days. Sometimes I don't. 

Which is gonna be a problem once I start work~ 

Which I think is really soon. 

My hunger is an issue too~ hahaha

I didn't gain weight 

But I'm eating supper every single night. 

Like it's really bad cause if I don't eat I can't sleep. At all. 

Hahahaha 

Okay I can't wait to earn more money 

I have so much plans to buy all the things I wanna buy

And do all the things I wanna do 

I'm just so relaxed lately 

Watching shows. Eating. Chatting. Playing. 

Meeting Lynn later~ 

Yes I miss Taiwan always. And them hahaha

Okay time to blog about them ^^

Enough about feelings~ 

Too many words to say. 

I miss it so so so so so so so much

It's beyond imagination. 

Probably one of my most missed memories of my life. 

9 days of pure bliss

Where can you get that?

Plus I felt very protected too. Like they helped me soo much. 

I love them a lot

Each and everyone of them

Spent today in a blur. 

Did laundry. Water plants. Post insta. Look through photos. The norm. Eat lunch. Eat dinner.

I didn't even feel like watching drama or anime. My brain is still back in Taiwan. 

So much that I miss. 

Their presence 

Their jokes. 

Conversations.

Hehe can't wait for the next trip. 

Tomorrow I'm going out with someone who makes me happy!!!

Hopefully that will bring me back to Singapore LOL 

Glad to be back with family tho.

I just miss my new family badly and I know they will miss me as badly too. 

<3 will blog Tmr morning if I can!!! 

The post will be 4 hours long? LOL

Probably the last supper I will ever go for

Oh how strange 

My last supper 

Hehe

Don't get me wrong 

I love the woodlands buddies 

But going for supper now just isn't worth it

My parents are troubled..

Unless there's a sleepover~ 

Got to meet them today tho. 

So quite happy

Since it's been ages since I've met up with them. 

Now I'm excited to go Taiwan :) 

It's tomorrow night night 3am

I have like 12 hours to pack~ 

My parents are always worried tho~ don't worrryyyy I can settle. 

As much as I miss them. 

And I do love them. 

Their presence makes me happy. 

I think there will be a chance I'm home sick too. 

But going out with friends. 

8 days sounds pretty good 

Okay after my Taiwan trip

no more going out

No more no more

Both weekends for family that's it.

Do housework. Help out. Eat dinner spend time. 

Then weekday work. 

If free time.. Go out with friends for dinner! But that's it 

Hehehe okay my resolution.! 

Must spend more time with them...

Had class outing today

Omg I miss 1215 so much

I didn't realise how much until I met them. 

Attendance is never a problem I realise.... 

15 people were present today 

Those that weren't.. Were overseas :)  and of course some others hehe 

But it was awesome!!!! The feeling of back in jc. 

My class is the anything goes class. 

While being really kind to each other. 

I love love that environment. 

Super easy going

There's a chance that I love it so much cause I'm used to it too for 2 years~ 

Either ways it was so goooood 

Like just playing with kite 

Who knew I could be so entertained and amazed for 2 hours just by kite. 

Plus I always get more childish when I'm with the class 

I DONT KNOW WHY LOL

I think cause it feels very free 

Like unlike my og. I need to make decisions where when who's going. And keep the conversation going 

Don't get me wrong I do love my og.. But I don't like feeling that responsibility for the entire session. 

But in class 

After being with them for two years. 

They have probably seen my stupid side more than anyone.

My angry side. 

My emo side? Hehe 

Okay more of my blur and stupid side. 

And we have all been together for 2 years. 

So it's just that comfortable feeling that I have with them that I love. 

unleashes the kiddy side of yehlin. Really kiddy

Jumping around and skipping is an understatement. 

Er big hand actions and slight screaming even when I'm alone. Yep that's me. 

Okay partially cause some of the stuff were sincerely really really cool to me

Like the feelers of the parachute 

It's like 5 meters long?!?!!!!!!!

FREEEEEAKING LONG 

And super cool how can I not be amazed

And DESPICABLE ME KITE !!!!!!! 

minion flying !!!!!!!! 

I can close my eyes and imagine the BA BA BA BA BANANA 

BA BA BA BANANANA

NANANANA LAAAAAAAAAA

POTATO LAAAAAAA

Like minion singing to me from the sky 

LOL this is probably why I'm so easily entertained. My imagination is beyond the norm. 

And then Alvin having trouble with the la bi Xiao Xin kite was the funniest/stupidest/cutest thing ever 

Like he will run to the edge of marina barrage

 pull one side

Pull the other side

Pull here pull there

And you see the kite falling falling and PIAK

KO!!!!! 

And he will grrrrr and start over hahaha

Plus I know Alvin don't mind my craziness so I simply didn't hide my excitement. 

The person told me that he/she (lets just put he) knew nothing about me. 

And I was so surprised 

Hahahha

All the while even tho I know we are solid as a clique 

I've always wondered things about them. 

I mean in a clique 14people strong.

You're not gonna be super tight to every single one within two years~ 

Like I've wondered about their private lives. Their interests. Their.. Secrets. 

I never realised that they didn't know mine too LOL 

Until he asked me 

I was like whoa 

And then it came to me that only 3 or so of them really knew my stories~

I really don't mind telling them. 

Haha after all I know that they all have a good heart. And secretly mature mind. 

But there always isn't a chance.! Like opportunity too~

Cause when I see them I see them with their cliques. 

Sometimes say Hi to their cliques. 

Even when I talk to them alone.. There wasn't any opportunity~

Hehehe just interesting

Oh and I figured it came to me today

I should list out the number of cliques I have 

And then the number of cliques me and vernice share 

My "family" from 2/5

Css dancers

4M girls 

Gay Okay 

1215

Woodlands buddies

Pri sch friends 

And me and vernice both have in common

4M girls

gay Okay

Css dancers 

PLUS the number of times I go over to meet her on my own. 

That is .... Crazy... 

Hahahahha just interesting 

Today met up with 4m girls !!!

We had lotsa fun. 

I won every bridge round :O 

Cooooooooooool!!!!

Hahaha 

And cheat and daidi

It's hard to say. But Reine's presence always bring about this comfortable feeling. 

Okay sleepy hehe

Tomorrow is a looooong day!!!

3 cliques.... 

Morning Dance 

Afternoon dinz 1215

Supper Woodlands buddies 

Today was 

4m girls 

Yesterday 

Afternoon went ver house

Night met up with Daniel!!! :)

The day before 

Morning meet A

Afternoon go Yunhsiu house

Night meet ogms 

Oh my meeting with ogms was .... 

Super cool

If I have time I'll post about it

Muacks

Nights :)

I got this feeling.... My parents are gonna scold me like mad LOL

Cause I haven't packed yet and my schedule is until supper today~ 

Met Gladys and clamus today 

Progressed quite a bit for the dance !! 

So I'm pretty happy hehe 

But I really really want to join dance classes alr k!! 

Can't tolerate the feeling of not going to a proper dance class

I think if I go... My mood will improve so much!!!! Like somewhere to express. Rant. 

I wonder if anyone felt like that about me.

Well I know I will only let people go if I don't have a choice. 

So I'm glad I have no regrets right now ^^ 

Feelings are so hard to control

But I feel somewhat in control of them right now. 

Which is so new. 

I should really sleep more LOL

I think I will talk less shit if I do hehe

Think less

But I'm enjoying life

Today met up with vernice for about 3 hours.

That girl (whom I love) IS MAKING ME NERVOUS

WHAT TO WEAR FOR TAIWAN

BOOTS BAG HAT CLOTHES TIGHTS 

hahaha ACCESSORIES :D 

Sunglasses 

Oh and I met up with Daniel after that for dinner 

6 years of friendship

Me and him were kinda close from sec 1-2 cause same class 

But in sec 3-4 we were less

During J1-2 we really bonded a lot a lot more

Plus our frequency is the same 

HAHAHAHA

I love him very much. 

While I was walking along with him at holland V 

He suddenly turned around and pointed upwards 

Isn't gonna be a happy post or a sad post. Just thoughts.... 

My sleepover with Jon Jing xav was the best thing ever. 

I feel like they saved me. 

Hell everytime I go out with friends I feel like they're saving me. 

I miss school so much. 

But it's time for me to climb out of this hole. 

Stand on my two feet 

Jinggy and xav matured a lot

Jon... Has always been mature. He didn't change much. 

Jinggy and xav really really really matured a lot. It surprised me. 

I asked them how do they get the drive to keep going forth. Keep trying. 

Jinggy said. Firstly give yourself no second option. Only the first. 

Of course if your plans fall to plan B don't despair. 

But always strive to be first. 

Then she said 

Have a goal that inspires you to do well. 

That can drive you. 

I used to inspire myself with the words 

"Be your miracle" 

That really drove me to do well. 

Fight for something that you can be proud of.

Your fate is in your hands. 

Take everyday as a challenge to succeed the you yesterday. 

Progress with every step. 

I do wish that I could have heard this sooner. 

I know that I have failed the quest for Alevels. 

I am so so so determined to do well for uni. 

And even tho I have failed As, I know that I have gained something immeasurable in return. 

Experience. 

It's just something priceless to me. 

Under my circumstances. How many people experience the same thing. 

I could say I was lost for a year. Ever since the problem with Lester. Broken? 

Only ver really knew how hard I cried I think. I always remember going to her house cause I didn't want to be alone. 

And the mere mention of his name made me cry on the spot. I couldn't stop myself. All defences were broken. 

In June after I patched myself back up gradually. 

Something happened again. 

It affected my mid years and prelims. 

As was the only time I was actually prepared for an exam? 

But that was my first in the year. 

I don't regret things tho. 

Circumstances called for it

All I know is that

I'm sure the guy I will love shouldn't treat me like that. 

And I have so much faith that I will meet him. 

Which is so strange cause I don't know who the hell is he LOL 

Surprisingly enough

The impression that everyone has of yehlin is 

This girl got quite a few guys Jio.

But she don't care them and happy happy everyday. 

Hahaha okay the don't care part......

Might be... Slightly true. 

You see my compassion for them isn't enough to overcome the knowledge and guilt that talking more now will only make the hurt greater. 

If I talk to them. It is for their sake. Purely. 

Not mine at all. 

I gain nothing from communicating with them. 

Especially not a new friendship. 

Cause one day they will realise it's impossible and let things go. 

Do I wanna be left stranded again? Nope.

Unless it's a guy that really pique my interest. 

Of course that's full of assumptions. But you see that have been happening to me for the longest time. 

How am I to understand their perspective when the opposite has been happening to me for ages? 

And the partial reason why I'm always repeating this is cause I'm guilty. 

A lot of my friends have been experiencing love problems .

Perhaps 18-19 is the age that you either be chased. Chase. Or be rejected. Or accepted.

So many things are set in motion. 

Not for me definitely. 

But for my friends. 

There are waaaaay for failed cases than successful cases from what I've been hearing. 

My heart ache for them. 

But as I believe 

And I told a friend 

Take this as a learning experience 

A growing one 

It's tough and heart breaking

But it's just one of the milestone and challenges to find the real true guy you will meet in your future. The guy that will truly cherish you. 

So do not despair. 

I'm sure you will.

There's so much emotions within me. 

But I know one thing is for sure. 

I am happy now :)

My friends and family are the kindest people EVA 

Even the stupid gay okay 

Who SCOLDS ME EVERY SINGLE outing

HAHAHAHA 

Stupid Darrin was like TRANNY 

Hahaha okay~ 

Next post I will be posting about my days!!!! ^^

On my way to kovan melody 

I keep wanting to post about Taiwan

But everytime I wanna post

I read vernice blog

Then happy happy le LOL 

Last night I laughed to myself at 3am oh myyyy 

Laughed out loud 

Hahaha very sweet tho hehe

"I kinda freaked out but I didn't show it cause yehlin was like "I trust you" "

Hahahaha it's kinda touching hehe and so funny to know the other side of the story 

Cause I swear I didn't know that she lost her way for a while

I thought she was super super super sure where she was walking 

Like even when we went to like the dark areas. 

And then when we reached the lighted areas I was like "omg sense of direction so good. Able to navigate through dark streets and places we didn't go before" 

Plus seriously

If I went with Lynn we cooonfirm GG 

Lynn can't navigate through Bugis street 

Much less the giant night markets in Taiwan that she has never gone

Like I imagine going there with her and getting lost every single night market. 

Which is a bit scary in a foreign place. 

Haha but I also love Lynn laaaaaa

Anyway 

Yesterday was such a good day

I am freaking amazed

Okay today is kinda planned to be a good day

Cause I'm meeting my favourite guys 

And and I'm meeting Jinggy Jon tonight

Miss vernice thoooo <3 

But yesterday wasn't planned 

And it went so well... 

Firstly went for this interview at bradell mrt. Sph. I wasn't late !!!!!!!!!!!!! Clap clap clap

The interview went well 

Okay sort of 

I lost my Olevels cert 

HAHAHAHA okay not a laughing matter 

But I will find it tonight or Tmr k

So I couldn't give like any real authorized results to the interviewer of sph. 

And they need a real smart person to do their stuffs cause he explained to me their job scope. 

Out of three people. I was second in place. Which I guess it's okay. Since I didn't bring my cert aiyoh 

Oh anyways 

The interview went smoothly tho

Confident. Small chat. Bubbly everything. 

Like I'm put in this situation whereby I need to be very open and confident

Okay strangely enough 

Somehow I feel more confident after the interview 

Like no longer mopey 

Then after that I bumped into 

Yesterday I had my first day of work 

Wa trust me 

Working at a seafood buffet at Mandarin Marina on an empty stomach is torturous. 

It's like you have to throw away all the food on their plates 

There was this moment I had to throw away like 5 fresh pieces of salmon sashimi completely untouched. 

Wa it took me all my strength not to put it in my mouth LOL 

I'm not saliva conscious~ 

I guess that made it really hard. It's like testing my mind. Torturing it LOL

Okay enough of being melodramatic 

Bottom line is 

Now that I'm on my way to work I must must eat later man 

It's a waitressing job at a buffet. Seven per hour. 6.00pm to 11/12.30am

Today I'm working to 12.30! Then they will drive to doorstep yay!!! 

Buffet jobs are always good cuz there's only three main job. 

1. Give plain water hot/cold

2. Give coffee/tea 

3. Clear plates 

But that's not the only best part about this job

For starters 

At the start of the week you can choose when you want to work and which day you don't want to! Like just tell the manager 

Secondly

I AM WORKING WITH LYNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHA yay!!!!!

I was a bit disgruntled cuz my partner in my designated area was slacking a bit. So I mouthed the word "the old uncle SLACKING" to Lynn

And me and her laughed hehe like through a glass!!!

okok bye !!!!!!!
 

I didn't bother keeping track of time or date. 

The only thing I was aware of was morning afternoon night. Sometimes I keep track of days. Sometimes I don't. 

Which is gonna be a problem once I start work~ 

Which I think is really soon. 

My hunger is an issue too~ hahaha

I didn't gain weight 

But I'm eating supper every single night. 

Like it's really bad cause if I don't eat I can't sleep. At all. 

Hahahaha 

Okay I can't wait to earn more money 

I have so much plans to buy all the things I wanna buy

And do all the things I wanna do 

I'm just so relaxed lately 

Watching shows. Eating. Chatting. Playing. 

Meeting Lynn later~ 

Yes I miss Taiwan always. And them hahaha

Okay time to blog about them ^^

Enough about feelings~ 

Too many words to say. 

I miss it so so so so so so so much

It's beyond imagination. 

Probably one of my most missed memories of my life. 

9 days of pure bliss

Where can you get that?

Plus I felt very protected too. Like they helped me soo much. 

I love them a lot

Each and everyone of them

Spent today in a blur. 

Did laundry. Water plants. Post insta. Look through photos. The norm. Eat lunch. Eat dinner.

I didn't even feel like watching drama or anime. My brain is still back in Taiwan. 

So much that I miss. 

Their presence 

Their jokes. 

Conversations.

Hehe can't wait for the next trip. 

Tomorrow I'm going out with someone who makes me happy!!!

Hopefully that will bring me back to Singapore LOL 

Glad to be back with family tho.

I just miss my new family badly and I know they will miss me as badly too. 

<3 will blog Tmr morning if I can!!! 

The post will be 4 hours long? LOL

Probably the last supper I will ever go for

Oh how strange 

My last supper 

Hehe

Don't get me wrong 

I love the woodlands buddies 

But going for supper now just isn't worth it

My parents are troubled..

Unless there's a sleepover~ 

Got to meet them today tho. 

So quite happy

Since it's been ages since I've met up with them. 

Now I'm excited to go Taiwan :) 

It's tomorrow night night 3am

I have like 12 hours to pack~ 

My parents are always worried tho~ don't worrryyyy I can settle. 

As much as I miss them. 

And I do love them. 

Their presence makes me happy. 

I think there will be a chance I'm home sick too. 

But going out with friends. 

8 days sounds pretty good 

Okay after my Taiwan trip

no more going out

No more no more

Both weekends for family that's it.

Do housework. Help out. Eat dinner spend time. 

Then weekday work. 

If free time.. Go out with friends for dinner! But that's it 

Hehehe okay my resolution.! 

Must spend more time with them...

Had class outing today

Omg I miss 1215 so much

I didn't realise how much until I met them. 

Attendance is never a problem I realise.... 

15 people were present today 

Those that weren't.. Were overseas :)  and of course some others hehe 

But it was awesome!!!! The feeling of back in jc. 

My class is the anything goes class. 

While being really kind to each other. 

I love love that environment. 

Super easy going

There's a chance that I love it so much cause I'm used to it too for 2 years~ 

Either ways it was so goooood 

Like just playing with kite 

Who knew I could be so entertained and amazed for 2 hours just by kite. 

Plus I always get more childish when I'm with the class 

I DONT KNOW WHY LOL

I think cause it feels very free 

Like unlike my og. I need to make decisions where when who's going. And keep the conversation going 

Don't get me wrong I do love my og.. But I don't like feeling that responsibility for the entire session. 

But in class 

After being with them for two years. 

They have probably seen my stupid side more than anyone.

My angry side. 

My emo side? Hehe 

Okay more of my blur and stupid side. 

And we have all been together for 2 years. 

So it's just that comfortable feeling that I have with them that I love. 

unleashes the kiddy side of yehlin. Really kiddy

Jumping around and skipping is an understatement. 

Er big hand actions and slight screaming even when I'm alone. Yep that's me. 

Okay partially cause some of the stuff were sincerely really really cool to me

Like the feelers of the parachute 

It's like 5 meters long?!?!!!!!!!

FREEEEEAKING LONG 

And super cool how can I not be amazed

And DESPICABLE ME KITE !!!!!!! 

minion flying !!!!!!!! 

I can close my eyes and imagine the BA BA BA BA BANANA 

BA BA BA BANANANA

NANANANA LAAAAAAAAAA

POTATO LAAAAAAA

Like minion singing to me from the sky 

LOL this is probably why I'm so easily entertained. My imagination is beyond the norm. 

And then Alvin having trouble with the la bi Xiao Xin kite was the funniest/stupidest/cutest thing ever 

Like he will run to the edge of marina barrage

 pull one side

Pull the other side

Pull here pull there

And you see the kite falling falling and PIAK

KO!!!!! 

And he will grrrrr and start over hahaha

Plus I know Alvin don't mind my craziness so I simply didn't hide my excitement. 

The person told me that he/she (lets just put he) knew nothing about me. 

And I was so surprised 

Hahahha

All the while even tho I know we are solid as a clique 

I've always wondered things about them. 

I mean in a clique 14people strong.

You're not gonna be super tight to every single one within two years~ 

Like I've wondered about their private lives. Their interests. Their.. Secrets. 

I never realised that they didn't know mine too LOL 

Until he asked me 

I was like whoa 

And then it came to me that only 3 or so of them really knew my stories~

I really don't mind telling them. 

Haha after all I know that they all have a good heart. And secretly mature mind. 

But there always isn't a chance.! Like opportunity too~

Cause when I see them I see them with their cliques. 

Sometimes say Hi to their cliques. 

Even when I talk to them alone.. There wasn't any opportunity~

Hehehe just interesting

Oh and I figured it came to me today

I should list out the number of cliques I have 

And then the number of cliques me and vernice share 

My "family" from 2/5

Css dancers

4M girls 

Gay Okay 

1215

Woodlands buddies

Pri sch friends 

And me and vernice both have in common

4M girls

gay Okay

Css dancers 

PLUS the number of times I go over to meet her on my own. 

That is .... Crazy... 

Hahahahha just interesting 

Today met up with 4m girls !!!

We had lotsa fun. 

I won every bridge round :O 

Cooooooooooool!!!!

Hahaha 

And cheat and daidi

It's hard to say. But Reine's presence always bring about this comfortable feeling. 

Okay sleepy hehe

Tomorrow is a looooong day!!!

3 cliques.... 

Morning Dance 

Afternoon dinz 1215

Supper Woodlands buddies 

Today was 

4m girls 

Yesterday 

Afternoon went ver house

Night met up with Daniel!!! :)

The day before 

Morning meet A

Afternoon go Yunhsiu house

Night meet ogms 

Oh my meeting with ogms was .... 

Super cool

If I have time I'll post about it

Muacks

Nights :)

I got this feeling.... My parents are gonna scold me like mad LOL

Cause I haven't packed yet and my schedule is until supper today~ 

Met Gladys and clamus today 

Progressed quite a bit for the dance !! 

So I'm pretty happy hehe 

But I really really want to join dance classes alr k!! 

Can't tolerate the feeling of not going to a proper dance class

I think if I go... My mood will improve so much!!!! Like somewhere to express. Rant. 

I wonder if anyone felt like that about me.

Well I know I will only let people go if I don't have a choice. 

So I'm glad I have no regrets right now ^^ 

Feelings are so hard to control

But I feel somewhat in control of them right now. 

Which is so new. 

I should really sleep more LOL

I think I will talk less shit if I do hehe

Think less

But I'm enjoying life

Today met up with vernice for about 3 hours.

That girl (whom I love) IS MAKING ME NERVOUS

WHAT TO WEAR FOR TAIWAN

BOOTS BAG HAT CLOTHES TIGHTS 

hahaha ACCESSORIES :D 

Sunglasses 

Oh and I met up with Daniel after that for dinner 

6 years of friendship

Me and him were kinda close from sec 1-2 cause same class 

But in sec 3-4 we were less

During J1-2 we really bonded a lot a lot more

Plus our frequency is the same 

HAHAHAHA

I love him very much. 

While I was walking along with him at holland V 

He suddenly turned around and pointed upwards 

Isn't gonna be a happy post or a sad post. Just thoughts.... 

My sleepover with Jon Jing xav was the best thing ever. 

I feel like they saved me. 

Hell everytime I go out with friends I feel like they're saving me. 

I miss school so much. 

But it's time for me to climb out of this hole. 

Stand on my two feet 

Jinggy and xav matured a lot

Jon... Has always been mature. He didn't change much. 

Jinggy and xav really really really matured a lot. It surprised me. 

I asked them how do they get the drive to keep going forth. Keep trying. 

Jinggy said. Firstly give yourself no second option. Only the first. 

Of course if your plans fall to plan B don't despair. 

But always strive to be first. 

Then she said 

Have a goal that inspires you to do well. 

That can drive you. 

I used to inspire myself with the words 

"Be your miracle" 

That really drove me to do well. 

Fight for something that you can be proud of.

Your fate is in your hands. 

Take everyday as a challenge to succeed the you yesterday. 

Progress with every step. 

I do wish that I could have heard this sooner. 

I know that I have failed the quest for Alevels. 

I am so so so determined to do well for uni. 

And even tho I have failed As, I know that I have gained something immeasurable in return. 

Experience. 

It's just something priceless to me. 

Under my circumstances. How many people experience the same thing. 

I could say I was lost for a year. Ever since the problem with Lester. Broken? 

Only ver really knew how hard I cried I think. I always remember going to her house cause I didn't want to be alone. 

And the mere mention of his name made me cry on the spot. I couldn't stop myself. All defences were broken. 

In June after I patched myself back up gradually. 

Something happened again. 

It affected my mid years and prelims. 

As was the only time I was actually prepared for an exam? 

But that was my first in the year. 

I don't regret things tho. 

Circumstances called for it

All I know is that

I'm sure the guy I will love shouldn't treat me like that. 

And I have so much faith that I will meet him. 

Which is so strange cause I don't know who the hell is he LOL 

Surprisingly enough

The impression that everyone has of yehlin is 

This girl got quite a few guys Jio.

But she don't care them and happy happy everyday. 

Hahaha okay the don't care part......

Might be... Slightly true. 

You see my compassion for them isn't enough to overcome the knowledge and guilt that talking more now will only make the hurt greater. 

If I talk to them. It is for their sake. Purely. 

Not mine at all. 

I gain nothing from communicating with them. 

Especially not a new friendship. 

Cause one day they will realise it's impossible and let things go. 

Do I wanna be left stranded again? Nope.

Unless it's a guy that really pique my interest. 

Of course that's full of assumptions. But you see that have been happening to me for the longest time. 

How am I to understand their perspective when the opposite has been happening to me for ages? 

And the partial reason why I'm always repeating this is cause I'm guilty. 

A lot of my friends have been experiencing love problems .

Perhaps 18-19 is the age that you either be chased. Chase. Or be rejected. Or accepted.

So many things are set in motion. 

Not for me definitely. 

But for my friends. 

There are waaaaay for failed cases than successful cases from what I've been hearing. 

My heart ache for them. 

But as I believe 

And I told a friend 

Take this as a learning experience 

A growing one 

It's tough and heart breaking

But it's just one of the milestone and challenges to find the real true guy you will meet in your future. The guy that will truly cherish you. 

So do not despair. 

I'm sure you will.

There's so much emotions within me. 

But I know one thing is for sure. 

I am happy now :)

My friends and family are the kindest people EVA 

Even the stupid gay okay 

Who SCOLDS ME EVERY SINGLE outing

HAHAHAHA 

Stupid Darrin was like TRANNY 

Hahaha okay~ 

Next post I will be posting about my days!!!! ^^

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