Isn't gonna be a happy post or a sad post. Just thoughts.... 

My sleepover with Jon Jing xav was the best thing ever. 

I feel like they saved me. 

Hell everytime I go out with friends I feel like they're saving me. 

I miss school so much. 

But it's time for me to climb out of this hole. 

Stand on my two feet 

Jinggy and xav matured a lot

Jon... Has always been mature. He didn't change much. 

Jinggy and xav really really really matured a lot. It surprised me. 

I asked them how do they get the drive to keep going forth. Keep trying. 

Jinggy said. Firstly give yourself no second option. Only the first. 

Of course if your plans fall to plan B don't despair. 

But always strive to be first. 

Then she said 

Have a goal that inspires you to do well. 

That can drive you. 

I used to inspire myself with the words 

"Be your miracle" 

That really drove me to do well. 

Fight for something that you can be proud of.

Your fate is in your hands. 

Take everyday as a challenge to succeed the you yesterday. 

Progress with every step. 

I do wish that I could have heard this sooner. 

I know that I have failed the quest for Alevels. 

I am so so so determined to do well for uni. 

And even tho I have failed As, I know that I have gained something immeasurable in return. 

Experience. 

It's just something priceless to me. 

Under my circumstances. How many people experience the same thing. 

I could say I was lost for a year. Ever since the problem with Lester. Broken? 

Only ver really knew how hard I cried I think. I always remember going to her house cause I didn't want to be alone. 

And the mere mention of his name made me cry on the spot. I couldn't stop myself. All defences were broken. 

In June after I patched myself back up gradually. 

Something happened again. 

It affected my mid years and prelims. 

As was the only time I was actually prepared for an exam? 

But that was my first in the year. 

I don't regret things tho. 

Circumstances called for it

All I know is that

I'm sure the guy I will love shouldn't treat me like that. 

And I have so much faith that I will meet him. 

Which is so strange cause I don't know who the hell is he LOL 

Surprisingly enough

The impression that everyone has of yehlin is 

This girl got quite a few guys Jio.

But she don't care them and happy happy everyday. 

Hahaha okay the don't care part......

Might be... Slightly true. 

You see my compassion for them isn't enough to overcome the knowledge and guilt that talking more now will only make the hurt greater. 

If I talk to them. It is for their sake. Purely. 

Not mine at all. 

I gain nothing from communicating with them. 

Especially not a new friendship. 

Cause one day they will realise it's impossible and let things go. 

Do I wanna be left stranded again? Nope.

Unless it's a guy that really pique my interest. 

Of course that's full of assumptions. But you see that have been happening to me for the longest time. 

How am I to understand their perspective when the opposite has been happening to me for ages? 

And the partial reason why I'm always repeating this is cause I'm guilty. 

A lot of my friends have been experiencing love problems .

Perhaps 18-19 is the age that you either be chased. Chase. Or be rejected. Or accepted.

So many things are set in motion. 

Not for me definitely. 

But for my friends. 

There are waaaaay for failed cases than successful cases from what I've been hearing. 

My heart ache for them. 

But as I believe 

And I told a friend 

Take this as a learning experience 

A growing one 

It's tough and heart breaking

But it's just one of the milestone and challenges to find the real true guy you will meet in your future. The guy that will truly cherish you. 

So do not despair. 

I'm sure you will.

There's so much emotions within me. 

But I know one thing is for sure. 

I am happy now :)

My friends and family are the kindest people EVA 

Even the stupid gay okay 

Who SCOLDS ME EVERY SINGLE outing

HAHAHAHA 

Stupid Darrin was like TRANNY 

Hahaha okay~ 

Next post I will be posting about my days!!!! ^^

Isn't gonna be a happy post or a sad post. Just thoughts.... 

My sleepover with Jon Jing xav was the best thing ever. 

I feel like they saved me. 

Hell everytime I go out with friends I feel like they're saving me. 

I miss school so much. 

But it's time for me to climb out of this hole. 

Stand on my two feet 

Jinggy and xav matured a lot

Jon... Has always been mature. He didn't change much. 

Jinggy and xav really really really matured a lot. It surprised me. 

I asked them how do they get the drive to keep going forth. Keep trying. 

Jinggy said. Firstly give yourself no second option. Only the first. 

Of course if your plans fall to plan B don't despair. 

But always strive to be first. 

Then she said 

Have a goal that inspires you to do well. 

That can drive you. 

I used to inspire myself with the words 

"Be your miracle" 

That really drove me to do well. 

Fight for something that you can be proud of.

Your fate is in your hands. 

Take everyday as a challenge to succeed the you yesterday. 

Progress with every step. 

I do wish that I could have heard this sooner. 

I know that I have failed the quest for Alevels. 

I am so so so determined to do well for uni. 

And even tho I have failed As, I know that I have gained something immeasurable in return. 

Experience. 

It's just something priceless to me. 

Under my circumstances. How many people experience the same thing. 

I could say I was lost for a year. Ever since the problem with Lester. Broken? 

Only ver really knew how hard I cried I think. I always remember going to her house cause I didn't want to be alone. 

And the mere mention of his name made me cry on the spot. I couldn't stop myself. All defences were broken. 

In June after I patched myself back up gradually. 

Something happened again. 

It affected my mid years and prelims. 

As was the only time I was actually prepared for an exam? 

But that was my first in the year. 

I don't regret things tho. 

Circumstances called for it

All I know is that

I'm sure the guy I will love shouldn't treat me like that. 

And I have so much faith that I will meet him. 

Which is so strange cause I don't know who the hell is he LOL 

Surprisingly enough

The impression that everyone has of yehlin is 

This girl got quite a few guys Jio.

But she don't care them and happy happy everyday. 

Hahaha okay the don't care part......

Might be... Slightly true. 

You see my compassion for them isn't enough to overcome the knowledge and guilt that talking more now will only make the hurt greater. 

If I talk to them. It is for their sake. Purely. 

Not mine at all. 

I gain nothing from communicating with them. 

Especially not a new friendship. 

Cause one day they will realise it's impossible and let things go. 

Do I wanna be left stranded again? Nope.

Unless it's a guy that really pique my interest. 

Of course that's full of assumptions. But you see that have been happening to me for the longest time. 

How am I to understand their perspective when the opposite has been happening to me for ages? 

And the partial reason why I'm always repeating this is cause I'm guilty. 

A lot of my friends have been experiencing love problems .

Perhaps 18-19 is the age that you either be chased. Chase. Or be rejected. Or accepted.

So many things are set in motion. 

Not for me definitely. 

But for my friends. 

There are waaaaay for failed cases than successful cases from what I've been hearing. 

My heart ache for them. 

But as I believe 

And I told a friend 

Take this as a learning experience 

A growing one 

It's tough and heart breaking

But it's just one of the milestone and challenges to find the real true guy you will meet in your future. The guy that will truly cherish you. 

So do not despair. 

I'm sure you will.

There's so much emotions within me. 

But I know one thing is for sure. 

I am happy now :)

My friends and family are the kindest people EVA 

Even the stupid gay okay 

Who SCOLDS ME EVERY SINGLE outing

HAHAHAHA 

Stupid Darrin was like TRANNY 

Hahaha okay~ 

Next post I will be posting about my days!!!! ^^

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