I haven't been updating much cause I've really gotten quite busy and caught up in everything the past few months !!! 

First I had work which ended on 2nd may! 

During my working period I had to balance spending time with my friends my family Joshua and dance ! 

It was so hard cause every week has five days. 

Two days I HAD to eat at home because home is where the heart is. 

One day was reserved for dance to help out with clamus and Gladys item 

One or two days was for friends!! 

And one or two days was for Joshua!! 

And that's where things start to get tricky cause I can't possibly meet my "boyfriend" once every week when I'm not even studying.

At the same time, my friends are so important to me! Especially my old friends !! I always feel like time with them is so precious and irreplaceable! It makes me treasure every second. 

So I had to go through balancing everything for 2-3 months and it came to a point whereby EVERYONE was not happy with me cause I couldn't spend enough time with them. 

Like everyone was complaining and in my family's case they were scolding me which made me feel like crap.

During that period I was really really very irritated and angry and I think I probably vented to Joshua a whole lot.

It was still super fun tho!! Every second !! 

The only time I had to myself was that 15mins at 1am after settling down from all the outings etc. I always watch ellen videos for a while cause it makes me happy ! And played 2-3 rounds of candy crush! And i called it a day. Even when I'm at home and supposingly relaxing, I didn't cause my mind was focused on bonding with my family!! 

Similarly, when I'm out with my friends I don't want to use my phone!

I would check a max of 3-4 times for like 10-15 seconds each and that's all. I'll open conversations, remind myself to reply tonight and continue talking to the people around me! 

Hehehe 

Okay so I decided to post this to remind myself of what a performance was like 

Firstly, I HELPED SO MANY PEOPLE FAST CHANGE :O it's like whoa 

Okay others might not constitute 3+ as a lot! But I think it is.. Especially since I'm dancing myself for two items ! 

It's hard not to get affected too!! Like you're so focused on helping them change asap and rushing. Sometimes it's hard to focus on dancing after being flustered and knowing that you'll need to rush to help your friend later !! 

Okay so first I'll start off the show by being in my tango costume!! 

That red CAMISOLE, (which I personally feel it's a much higher class name than SPAGHETTI STRAPS) a long red skirt (which is actually quite pretty but absolutely not a good tango skirt) and safety shorts. I'll be wearing the white long sleeved top over if I feel like it~ 

I will stretch until my right is a split? Or one cm to a split 

Bloody back leg flexibility is so so so so so bad..... 

And until my chin touches the lower part of my knee on my left leg!! 

After it's done I'll do some kicks and some pathetic stretches for my back. 

And I'm done stretching !!!

I'll then go through the WHOLE choreo by marking my steps. I dk why this calms me down incredibly!! 

After I'm done then I'm all set for show!!

So after that the show will start and I'll standby at backstage to help clamus quickchange! Me and Waise help him together !!!! He was so so pitiful and empathize with him so so so so much!!!!!!! He has THREE continual performances with two fast change !!!!!! 

The amount of energy for one dance (if full out) is equal to a 2.4km run. 

Theoretically he has to run 7.2km and he can't even show his fatigue on his face cause he has to bring out the mood of each dance!! Like strong/hurt/funny/alluring etc 

And even so he didn't have a helper during his quick change :(((( 

The last practice rehearsal I saw him rushing out late it was so baad so I decided to help him!! 

Anyway I'm glad we did cause he had at least 20 seconds of breathing time!!!! Which he didn't have before that!!! 

So at least it gave him a short break so that he can perform his best!! 

So Waise will change his pants HAHAHA duh and help him wear shoes

I will change his top take out his bow tie his glasses wear hat 

Yay!!!! We worked beautifully and I'm happy! 

Somehow waiting backstage wasn't nerve wrecking too!!! It made me feel calmer cause... Idk... I can see the audience earlier while reminding myself that it is after all a regular practice whereby I will give my best no matter what!!! So it kinda steadied me! Idk how to explain.. 

The fun fact about this whole concert is that it is really a learning point for me. A breakthrough? Without the dramatic connotation to it. I feel like I really improved and gained experience!! 

Which makes me so so so happy I joined :) 

1. I FINALLY danced contemp 

Which I think It was really overly ambitious for me. Quite presumptuous of myself to think that I will be able to handle an alumni contemp piece when I have NEVER danced contemp before. 

Initially I really wanted to join just for fun. But as the days went by I realised I really wanted to join it for real. 

I never ever thought that I could match the others with my standard of dance. I just wanted to be close, or somewhere nearby. I practiced and full out every single time! Everytime I think I do badly I tried to remember everything everyone told me!! Practiced again and again!! So every step I did I really concentrated and heard their words in my head even during the performance itself! That's something I have never done for street. hahahahahaahahaha street was just based on feel and muscle memory and strength. But for contemp I had to think through every step, and think through fast. Where to stretch more, what's the accent, how to hit it. Even as I looked at the video of myself during the performance, I saw so many mistakes!!! But I saw many corrected mistakes concurrently too! I wished I knew my mistakes earlier... But it's okay I feel like I have improved!! :) and I have achieved well (hopefully). This brings me great satisfaction hehe! Plus I have also learnt how to put my emotions in contemp and show my accent at the same time!! I'm not good but I'm determined to improve! 

2. I know how a concert is like !!!!!! I am a very curious child. And that is one of my strengths (according to Daniel) 

Yes, I have been DYING to know what happens backstage!!! Always always curious. The dancers get on stage, dance full out, leave the stage and come out 1 min later with an entirely different outlook and expression!! I'm always wondering what do they say backstage? What do they do? What are their emotions? What does it feel like? Is there anyone helping them? How many? Are they tired.? Basically HOW do they do it!!!!! And I finally saw it and somewhat seen it first hand !!!!! Happy hahaha it's a cool experience! See how an entire concert play out! Such big production!! It involves more than 80 dancers!! 

And I must say the frenzied situation backstage is really crazy!!! Those that go for fast change they really desperately need as much help as possible. A lot of times it's to the point whereby they don't care anymore they just really don't want to walk on stage late. Just change in any secluded corner! Anywhere at all. ASAP. And enter the stage.!!! 

Aside from fast change another complication about dance concert is the change of mood. 

When a person dance in at least two items with different mood, you must learn to switch your mindset while on standby for next item! 

For me, while helping clamus I was rushy semi flustered. After that it's my contemp item which is tango! And the feeling is a bit proud? Sexy yet strong. High strung!!! 

During the item itself, there's a change of mood to the more expressive 

Next I will need to rush to change and calm down a bit before I help Xinyi fast change !!!!! During that period I will be a bit flustered too!! Cause there really isn't time!! 

I haven't been updating much cause I've really gotten quite busy and caught up in everything the past few months !!! 

First I had work which ended on 2nd may! 

During my working period I had to balance spending time with my friends my family Joshua and dance ! 

It was so hard cause every week has five days. 

Two days I HAD to eat at home because home is where the heart is. 

One day was reserved for dance to help out with clamus and Gladys item 

One or two days was for friends!! 

And one or two days was for Joshua!! 

And that's where things start to get tricky cause I can't possibly meet my "boyfriend" once every week when I'm not even studying.

At the same time, my friends are so important to me! Especially my old friends !! I always feel like time with them is so precious and irreplaceable! It makes me treasure every second. 

So I had to go through balancing everything for 2-3 months and it came to a point whereby EVERYONE was not happy with me cause I couldn't spend enough time with them. 

Like everyone was complaining and in my family's case they were scolding me which made me feel like crap.

During that period I was really really very irritated and angry and I think I probably vented to Joshua a whole lot.

It was still super fun tho!! Every second !! 

The only time I had to myself was that 15mins at 1am after settling down from all the outings etc. I always watch ellen videos for a while cause it makes me happy ! And played 2-3 rounds of candy crush! And i called it a day. Even when I'm at home and supposingly relaxing, I didn't cause my mind was focused on bonding with my family!! 

Similarly, when I'm out with my friends I don't want to use my phone!

I would check a max of 3-4 times for like 10-15 seconds each and that's all. I'll open conversations, remind myself to reply tonight and continue talking to the people around me! 

Hehehe 

Okay so I decided to post this to remind myself of what a performance was like 

Firstly, I HELPED SO MANY PEOPLE FAST CHANGE :O it's like whoa 

Okay others might not constitute 3+ as a lot! But I think it is.. Especially since I'm dancing myself for two items ! 

It's hard not to get affected too!! Like you're so focused on helping them change asap and rushing. Sometimes it's hard to focus on dancing after being flustered and knowing that you'll need to rush to help your friend later !! 

Okay so first I'll start off the show by being in my tango costume!! 

That red CAMISOLE, (which I personally feel it's a much higher class name than SPAGHETTI STRAPS) a long red skirt (which is actually quite pretty but absolutely not a good tango skirt) and safety shorts. I'll be wearing the white long sleeved top over if I feel like it~ 

I will stretch until my right is a split? Or one cm to a split 

Bloody back leg flexibility is so so so so so bad..... 

And until my chin touches the lower part of my knee on my left leg!! 

After it's done I'll do some kicks and some pathetic stretches for my back. 

And I'm done stretching !!!

I'll then go through the WHOLE choreo by marking my steps. I dk why this calms me down incredibly!! 

After I'm done then I'm all set for show!!

So after that the show will start and I'll standby at backstage to help clamus quickchange! Me and Waise help him together !!!! He was so so pitiful and empathize with him so so so so much!!!!!!! He has THREE continual performances with two fast change !!!!!! 

The amount of energy for one dance (if full out) is equal to a 2.4km run. 

Theoretically he has to run 7.2km and he can't even show his fatigue on his face cause he has to bring out the mood of each dance!! Like strong/hurt/funny/alluring etc 

And even so he didn't have a helper during his quick change :(((( 

The last practice rehearsal I saw him rushing out late it was so baad so I decided to help him!! 

Anyway I'm glad we did cause he had at least 20 seconds of breathing time!!!! Which he didn't have before that!!! 

So at least it gave him a short break so that he can perform his best!! 

So Waise will change his pants HAHAHA duh and help him wear shoes

I will change his top take out his bow tie his glasses wear hat 

Yay!!!! We worked beautifully and I'm happy! 

Somehow waiting backstage wasn't nerve wrecking too!!! It made me feel calmer cause... Idk... I can see the audience earlier while reminding myself that it is after all a regular practice whereby I will give my best no matter what!!! So it kinda steadied me! Idk how to explain.. 

The fun fact about this whole concert is that it is really a learning point for me. A breakthrough? Without the dramatic connotation to it. I feel like I really improved and gained experience!! 

Which makes me so so so happy I joined :) 

1. I FINALLY danced contemp 

Which I think It was really overly ambitious for me. Quite presumptuous of myself to think that I will be able to handle an alumni contemp piece when I have NEVER danced contemp before. 

Initially I really wanted to join just for fun. But as the days went by I realised I really wanted to join it for real. 

I never ever thought that I could match the others with my standard of dance. I just wanted to be close, or somewhere nearby. I practiced and full out every single time! Everytime I think I do badly I tried to remember everything everyone told me!! Practiced again and again!! So every step I did I really concentrated and heard their words in my head even during the performance itself! That's something I have never done for street. hahahahahaahahaha street was just based on feel and muscle memory and strength. But for contemp I had to think through every step, and think through fast. Where to stretch more, what's the accent, how to hit it. Even as I looked at the video of myself during the performance, I saw so many mistakes!!! But I saw many corrected mistakes concurrently too! I wished I knew my mistakes earlier... But it's okay I feel like I have improved!! :) and I have achieved well (hopefully). This brings me great satisfaction hehe! Plus I have also learnt how to put my emotions in contemp and show my accent at the same time!! I'm not good but I'm determined to improve! 

2. I know how a concert is like !!!!!! I am a very curious child. And that is one of my strengths (according to Daniel) 

Yes, I have been DYING to know what happens backstage!!! Always always curious. The dancers get on stage, dance full out, leave the stage and come out 1 min later with an entirely different outlook and expression!! I'm always wondering what do they say backstage? What do they do? What are their emotions? What does it feel like? Is there anyone helping them? How many? Are they tired.? Basically HOW do they do it!!!!! And I finally saw it and somewhat seen it first hand !!!!! Happy hahaha it's a cool experience! See how an entire concert play out! Such big production!! It involves more than 80 dancers!! 

And I must say the frenzied situation backstage is really crazy!!! Those that go for fast change they really desperately need as much help as possible. A lot of times it's to the point whereby they don't care anymore they just really don't want to walk on stage late. Just change in any secluded corner! Anywhere at all. ASAP. And enter the stage.!!! 

Aside from fast change another complication about dance concert is the change of mood. 

When a person dance in at least two items with different mood, you must learn to switch your mindset while on standby for next item! 

For me, while helping clamus I was rushy semi flustered. After that it's my contemp item which is tango! And the feeling is a bit proud? Sexy yet strong. High strung!!! 

During the item itself, there's a change of mood to the more expressive 

Next I will need to rush to change and calm down a bit before I help Xinyi fast change !!!!! During that period I will be a bit flustered too!! Cause there really isn't time!! 

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