And I can't really be bothered to list them down one by one 

Or rather, I have participated in too many things? Hahaha 

3 camps done. 1 Australia trip 

1 more big camp to go!! Excited! 

I am attached hahahaha 

Red light in uni terms

And as much as I thought It will feel like I'm missing out on stuffs by being red light. I really believe for real that there's no guy out there better for me. 

Never met a guy equally stupid 

Equally smart 

Equally hyper

Equally ... Aware of everything.

Equally greedy with regards to food :)

And apparently he thinks I'm kind. 

That I doubt so. 

But I think we are equally compassionate. 

Either ways he won't read this hahahaha 

So my point of this post has nothing to do with all of the above 

A thought suddenly came to me and I thought it would be best if I remember it. 

There is a procedure for the application of hall stays in nus. First window, second window, third window. 

Chances are ONLY if you apply for first window you are very likely to get a room. 

For Second and third window I don't think it's for the average student like me. 

I wanted to stay in hall so bad cause I feel like I wanted to experience that very experience of a hall life. Since year 1 or sem 1 of results isn't counted :) I thought it would be good to have some hall experience at no risk. 

I quarreled with my mum who opposed during the first window. Arguments shouting and everything. Finally during the second window I got my way, I could apply for hall. I held back tho, after I argued with my mum, she said her reasons and I couldn't wrap my head around it. I didn't know what did she mean. 

And when I got rejected during the second window (hahaha) 

I was actually relieved cause I didn't have to make a decision.

It isn't that I have changed my notion. I just realised another which is of higher importance than that reason. 

This would sound cliché but yes, the reasons are my parents. 

A thought dawned onto me as I saw my mum leave for work and I remembered her coming back from work... Rushing to do housework at home. My dad too is no different, the only break time they have is dinner. 

And these two people work so hard for the family, for their children, for my education. 

What exactly do they want as reward? 

They only want a happy family. 

And what is a greater reward than working your ass off and seeing your happy children at home telling you about the little things that happened in their lives. Picture it.

Who am I to take away this little reward that they rightly deserve? 

It's this selflessness that makes me feel so bad. Their willingness to do everything for their children just so they can see you happy everyday. I on the other hand, was about to make them lose even that. 

I can't imagine the feeling of the home losing anyone for a year. I can't imagine myself coming home and realizing my sister isn't here and that she won't be for a year. That pang of loneliness might only amplify as the months pass. And I will grow distant from the very humans who have brought me life. 

It just isn't right. All these in the name of making friends and gaining an experience. 

I didn't think that I would be losing an experience in return. 

Time spent with family is always priceless and precious. There's nothing that can replace that, definitely not an experience with friends. Your parents are growing old. You can see it even tho you might not believe it. My mum's skin has become more papery that I remembered. 

Her body has shrunk and is becoming smaller than me. My mum smaller than me? Since when was that possible! My mum has always been larger than life for me. Her warm presence telling me that everything is okay. The mum whom I ran to for a hug after school, the mum who knows all my stories cause I made sure she knew :)

And I can't believe I was foolish enough not to see this before. 

But I understand now and I realise that there really isn't any value in making new friends if it means you have to sacrifice the time spent with family on a daily basis.

But because of the sheer number of people applying for hall, I'm not sure if others can understand what I mean.

And I can't really be bothered to list them down one by one 

Or rather, I have participated in too many things? Hahaha 

3 camps done. 1 Australia trip 

1 more big camp to go!! Excited! 

I am attached hahahaha 

Red light in uni terms

And as much as I thought It will feel like I'm missing out on stuffs by being red light. I really believe for real that there's no guy out there better for me. 

Never met a guy equally stupid 

Equally smart 

Equally hyper

Equally ... Aware of everything.

Equally greedy with regards to food :)

And apparently he thinks I'm kind. 

That I doubt so. 

But I think we are equally compassionate. 

Either ways he won't read this hahahaha 

So my point of this post has nothing to do with all of the above 

A thought suddenly came to me and I thought it would be best if I remember it. 

There is a procedure for the application of hall stays in nus. First window, second window, third window. 

Chances are ONLY if you apply for first window you are very likely to get a room. 

For Second and third window I don't think it's for the average student like me. 

I wanted to stay in hall so bad cause I feel like I wanted to experience that very experience of a hall life. Since year 1 or sem 1 of results isn't counted :) I thought it would be good to have some hall experience at no risk. 

I quarreled with my mum who opposed during the first window. Arguments shouting and everything. Finally during the second window I got my way, I could apply for hall. I held back tho, after I argued with my mum, she said her reasons and I couldn't wrap my head around it. I didn't know what did she mean. 

And when I got rejected during the second window (hahaha) 

I was actually relieved cause I didn't have to make a decision.

It isn't that I have changed my notion. I just realised another which is of higher importance than that reason. 

This would sound cliché but yes, the reasons are my parents. 

A thought dawned onto me as I saw my mum leave for work and I remembered her coming back from work... Rushing to do housework at home. My dad too is no different, the only break time they have is dinner. 

And these two people work so hard for the family, for their children, for my education. 

What exactly do they want as reward? 

They only want a happy family. 

And what is a greater reward than working your ass off and seeing your happy children at home telling you about the little things that happened in their lives. Picture it.

Who am I to take away this little reward that they rightly deserve? 

It's this selflessness that makes me feel so bad. Their willingness to do everything for their children just so they can see you happy everyday. I on the other hand, was about to make them lose even that. 

I can't imagine the feeling of the home losing anyone for a year. I can't imagine myself coming home and realizing my sister isn't here and that she won't be for a year. That pang of loneliness might only amplify as the months pass. And I will grow distant from the very humans who have brought me life. 

It just isn't right. All these in the name of making friends and gaining an experience. 

I didn't think that I would be losing an experience in return. 

Time spent with family is always priceless and precious. There's nothing that can replace that, definitely not an experience with friends. Your parents are growing old. You can see it even tho you might not believe it. My mum's skin has become more papery that I remembered. 

Her body has shrunk and is becoming smaller than me. My mum smaller than me? Since when was that possible! My mum has always been larger than life for me. Her warm presence telling me that everything is okay. The mum whom I ran to for a hug after school, the mum who knows all my stories cause I made sure she knew :)

And I can't believe I was foolish enough not to see this before. 

But I understand now and I realise that there really isn't any value in making new friends if it means you have to sacrifice the time spent with family on a daily basis.

But because of the sheer number of people applying for hall, I'm not sure if others can understand what I mean.

Amanda
Andrea
Andrew
Azrina
Camellia
Cheryl
Chingwei
Chuxuan
Chloe
Daniel
Jason
Jeidy
Jiayi
Jieling
Jingci
Jingwen
Jodie
Joey
Jolene
Karmen
Keita
Keni
Lin
Liyin
lucy
Lynn
Madeline
Minghui
Muntat
Munyee
Nicole
Pearlyn
Pearlyn senior
Rachel
Radiance
Rebecca
Reine
Regena
sebastian
Shuyun
Siewyi
Simin
Siumin
Sin yi
Vernice
Weijun
Winnie
Xavier
Yukei
Zoey